I went bowling with my family then later played laser tag with my dad and 2 younger brothers.
That was fun.
I was really irritable after I spent an hour trying to get my dog in the bath (unsuccessful) and then brushing him outside where he kept trying to walk away from me. I asked my sister to ask my mom for a towel for my dogs muddy paws but she kept just coming out of the house over and over again talking about random shit.
Eventually I gave up on that and just let my dog inside. I asked my mom if my sister asked her and she said no, which made me more mad. I was just so pissed.
Before that, I was on a call with Alice. I was randomly doing my makeup. When I was done I did my hair and I thought I looked like I was out of certain eras of BTS and Shinee mixed together. Alice made a comment that shouldn't have got to me but it did. She said "It's funny how you think you're so attractive when you're not really that attractive. I mean, you're attractive but they're like gods."
I don't know why that got to me. I just want to feel like I'm good enough for her. I want to look nice and smell nice. I want to be attractive for her. I don't know. I just need to get over it.
Haley later cheered me up a bit. Haley always seems to know when I need a laugh or someone to talk to. I guess, Alice has Christian... and I have Haley...
