Yes, I'm skipping. I'm sorry.
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I fucking
Burnt in the middle
Of my eyebrows
With a hair straightener.
On today, of all days.
Luke called me for no reason.
He does this a lot.
He'll call me, not even talk to me, and just make me listen to him yelling at his family or friends.
It's actually annoying.
While he was doing that though, I was trying to figure out a way to cover my burn with makeup after I did anything I could find to make it heal in 7 hours (the amount of time I had until check in).
I put honey, petroleum jelly, and Neosporin on it.
I couldn't find any aloe Vera sadly.
After that I coated the shit out of it with makeup until is wasn't visible but then I realize we're going swimming and it's gonna come off so I washed the makeup off then put a trimmed bandaid on it and a pair of fake glasses.
It was fine.
I convinced my mom at the last minute to let me stay over night at the hotel for Alice's birthday today. My Grandma is watching my sister.
My mom decided to leave late because of.....
Actually,
I don't know why....
When I got to the hotel Haley, Jazmine, Red, Alice's mom, and of course, Alice were there.
I have Alice her second birthday present before we went swimming. I gave her a pack of pop tarts and a heart necklace.
We went swimming shortly after.
There was a lot of affection between me and Alice at the water park.
We all were on and off the slides and I was on and off the surfing thingy.
We all were constantly in the lazy river too, though, Red kept running off.
We ran out of things to do so we went back to the hotel about an hour before the park closed.
We were playing music and Red and Jazmine were daring at the table in their sketchbooks. Haley and I were playing volleyball with a makeshift ball out of tissue paper and a rubber band, Alice was on the bed, probably on Wattpad and Alice's mom was laying down sleeping.
Red went up to the top bunk (Above Alice's mom on the bottom bunk) and was on her phone with some headphones in.
I found Red to be disrespectful and ungrateful because Alice's parents spent all this money to fly her over here and buy a hotel room and passes and food and all kinds of shit and Red was just flipping everyone off and being mean to everyone.
She especially hated me for no apparent reason but I still tried to be her friend... I felt bad for Alice because she was looking forward to seeing Red but Red isn't interacting much..
We're planning to go to MOA (Mall Of America) tomorrow after we check out of our hotel. So think It'd be fun.
Haley and I say on the couch across from the table. Jazmine slid over her sketchbook. She had a picture of a severed hand in the middle with a bunch of words. My initial reaction was "woah" when I saw them hand, thinking she wanted me to see how good It was. That was until I read what was around it.
They were about suicide... I immediately started crying. I couldn't stop and I started hyperventilating.
I couldn't imagine losing my best friend who's been with me for years. I....I couldn't....I can't.
Alice was helping me breathe and comforting me. All I could think about was all the good times we had, and those stupid YouTube videos we made and, all the drawings we did, all the running around the playground looking like idiots but we didn't care because we were having fun. All I could think about was that. Just imagining her gone from that. Every time I thought about it the more I would hyperventilate. It hurt so much.
Red was confused as to what was going on but didn't attempt to help. Maybe that was for the better though. She doesn't know us well.
Jazmine didn't want to sleep with Haley, so when Haley pulled the bed out of the couch, Jazmine took the cushions and slept on those with a blanket and pillow.
Also slept on the pullout, Alice's mom slept on the bottom bunk of the bunk bed that was in the corner and Red slept in the top while Alice and I slept together in the queen sized bed.
Alice is having a re-occurring dream, where I die in a fire and Luke is telling her I never loved her and that it was her fault.
She whimpers and cries in her sleep. I had to wake her up a few times to get her out and then I told her to fight the dream because she knows what's gonna happen. When she fell asleep again I held her hand and told her that my hand was right there in hers and it was just a dream. I put her hand on my heart so she could feel my heart beat. I whispered things like "you can do this" and "you're strong" in her ear.
I think her mom might be suspecting that we're together. I tried to roll Alice on her back because she started to tense up on her side. I was kneeling on top of her and I looked over at her mom and she was watching us. My immediate reaction was to drop straight on top of Alice and roll off to make it kind of look like I was moving in my sleep. I'm not sure if it worked though.
