Giving In

Chapter 11

Kay made her way out of Jackson's house and stopped in the yard. She took a few deep breaths and turned back to face the house. She was running away again, and it didn't feel right. She hadn't wanted to get close to Jackson because of her past, and now she didn't have that as an excuse. She told him the truth about what she had done, and he seemed to accept it. Jackson told her that he loved her and wanted to be with her. She couldn't understand why she was standing outside of his house just staring at the door when there shouldn't be anything standing in her way of being with Jackson and being happy. She decided that she didn't want to run from her feelings any longer.

Jackson watched Kay bolt from his house, and he just couldn't begin to understand her. She was so confusing. One minute she seemed to like him, and then she would run from him, and then she would be kissing him. Jackson stood there staring at the doorway and was filled with confusion, but slowly the confusion turned to anger. He was tired of her running away from him. He stomped down the hall and out the door thinking that maybe a cigarette would calm him down.

Kay walked back up to the door and took a deep breath. She wasn't going to run away this time. There was a man right inside that loved her, and she knew his love was true. She didn't quite know why he loved her. It's not like she was anything special. She had done such disgusting things in her life, and she didn't know why he would be willing to accept them, but Jackson hadn't just said the words, he had proved how he felt, and she couldn't run away from it any longer. Kay reached her hand to open the door when it flew open and knocked her over.

"What the hell Kay? Are you alright? Why were you just standing there?" Jackson reached down to help her up, feeling horrible for knocking her over. He didn't know why she had been standing there.

"Yeah, I'm okay. I came outside to think and get fresh air, and I realized that I don't need to hide from my feelings or hide from you." Kay whispered. "I was coming back inside to ask you to forgive me for running out."

 Jackson sat down on the porch swing and tapped the seat next to him to signal Kay to sit next to him. He handed her a cigarette and lit it for her, and then lit his own. They sat on the front porch in the middle of the night smoking in silence. Halfway through their cigarettes, Jackson reached out and grabbed onto her hand. They sat there for a few more minutes before Jackson broke the silence.

"I'm glad you didn't leave. Will you please stay with me tonight?" He leaned down and kissed her.

Kay couldn't respond because she was so filled with excitement and emotion so she nodded her head to let him know that she wanted to stay with him. She stood up and took him by the hand, helping him to his feet. Instead of going back into the house right away, Kay wrapped her arms around Jackson's neck and kissed him fiercely. Passion seemed to explode as their tongues tangled with each other. Kay couldn't stop herself from pulling Jackson closer to her, leaving no room in between.

Jackson could feel the love and passion that was held in the kisses between him and Kay. He snaked his arms around her and placed his hands on the small of her back, pulling her against his chest and abs as closely as he could. He felt Kay pull herself up against him as hard and close as she could, and right then and there, he lifted her up so that her legs wrapped around his waist. He needed her touch, needed her kisses, and needed her in ways he never thought he would need a woman again. Instead of carrying Kay inside the house, he took her around the back of the house and carried her to the dock he had that lead into the private lake behind his house.

Kay pulled away from Jackson to look at where he was taking her. All she saw was the moon light shining off of the lake, and the stars twinkling in the sky brightly. It was a beautiful view and made her gasp at the very sight. Once they were on the dock, she felt Jackson set her down onto her feet, and they turned so they were both facing the lake. Kay stood in front of Jackson, and he wrapped his arms around her waist as they stood staring at the sky. Kay slowly turned back to Jackson, and without saying a word, she wrapped her arms around his neck and began kissing him again.

The two of them slowly undressed each other, and Jackson led her onto the pontoon that he had tied to the dock. He lifted up the bench seat on the boat and grabbed a blanket from the storage box that was hidden under the seat. Jackson spread the blanket on the floor of the pontoon and held Kay's hand as he knelt down to sit on the blanket, guiding her down with him. Once they were both on the blanket, Jackson laid Kay down and leaned over her and kissed her with everything he had.

Kay let Jackson guide her backwards, so she was lying down on the blanket, and when he leaned down and kissed her, she wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him so that he was on top of her. She moved her legs, so they were on either side of his legs, and she pulled him down so his body was covering hers. She didn't want to wait another minute to have the man she knew she had fallen in love with.

 "Please make love to me." Kay whispered against his neck.

 Jackson didn't wait another second. He leaned down and kissed her hard as he allowed himself to enter her. As soon as he was inside of her, he felt her legs wrap around his waist and she moved with him so that they matched each other's thrusts. It didn't take long before Kay was moaning against Jackson's mouth. He pulled away from her mouth and kissed her on the neck as he rocked his body against hers again as she let out a sweet, soft cry. Jackson brought Kay the most pleasure she had ever experienced, and she threw her head back and let out moans from the back of her throat while her eyes filled with tears.

 "Baby, why are you crying? Is everything okay?" Jackson stopped his movements and whispered against her ear.

 "I'm just so happy, and you make me feel so good." She whispered back.

 With that, Jackson pulled back from her and thrust into her again. He then grabbed her by the waist and rolled so that he was lying on his back and she was straddling him, never breaking the connection between them. Kay was sitting on him; her body fully exposed and lit up by the moon light. Jackson had never seen anything as beautiful as that, and he tried to burn the image into his brain. He never wanted to forget their first time together, or how gorgeous she looked naked. As Kay starting moving against him, Jackson reached his hands up and swiped the hair out of her face so he could see into her eyes. He grabbed onto Kay's hips and moved her against him while he thrust his waist upwards toward her. Kay grabbed onto Jackson's shoulders and dug her nails into him while throwing her hair backwards and yelling out, her voice echoing across the lake. At the very sound of Kay crying out his name, Jackson grabbed tight onto her ass and held her tight against him. Right in that moment, they both brought each other to climax, and they Kay fell onto the blanket next to Jackson.

 "That... was... amazing." Kay breathed out while curling against Jackson's side so her head was on his shoulder and her arm was around his waist.

 "You are amazing, beautiful, and talented. That was by far the best moment of my life." Jackson smiled and put his arm around her so he could pull her closer.

 Kay reached up and kissed Jackson lightly before crawling over to the seat of the boat and grabbing another blanket. She sat next to Jackson and spread the blanket out so it covered both of them, and she snuggled up to him once more while closing her eyes. She didn't want to move from that very spot. She could tell that Jackson was staring at her, but she didn't care. For the first time in her life, she actually felt beautiful and wanted. Jackson was the first man she took her clothes off for that didn't make her feel like a piece of meat. For the first time in her life, Kay knew what it felt like to be truly loved and she didn't want that feeling to end.