Dan is one of the badest boys in the Manchester local high school whereas Phil is one of the more quite boys, however, Dan has secret...he likes Phil.
Dan would never usually go out of his way to help someone but when he finds Phil beaten half to de...
Too much. That's all this situation was. and as much. Somehow, somewhere deep down I hoped someone would read my letter... That someone would give it to Dan, that he would see it and be happy I'm in a better place... I remember this place. Dan brought me here on our first 'official' date. He said it's 'our' spot. My heart was aching at the memory. I was quickly knocked back to reality as the sound of rushing water filled my ears. I'm not going to say I'm not scared about this, well, I guess petrified is a better word but still. My breath hitching as I took small steps towards the water. Slowly loosening my hands as I let the razor I had used fall into the water, along with everything else I knew... My eyes locked on the water as the blood from my wrists slowly mixed with the rapids. I'll admit this wasn't how I pictured I would go, but then again, I had never pictured it fully.
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"PHIL!?"
My heart skipped a beat as the voice rang through my head, hot tears started escaping from my eyes.
"PHIL!? WHERE ARE YOU!?"
I knew who it was... Wait, did Dan know where to find me? Did dan go to my house and see my letter? Suddenly, "OH MY GOD PHIL GET AWAY FROM THERE!" echoed over the waves. Slowly, cautiously and painfully I turned around to face him. "P-Phil w-what did you do...?" His voice was flooding with concern, and yet somehow I still believe this wasn't real.
Dan started to come towards me as I shot my arms out and screamed through my sobs. "D-DON'T COME ANY CLOSER! I'LL JUMP! I'LL DO IT!" I saw the tears streaming down his face as my eyes met his, "Please Dan..." I guess you could say at this point I was begging for him.
"No, Phil! I'm not going to let you do this! Please don't do this!" I wanted to believe him, what he was saying but, after all, that's happened, somehow I didn't.
"LIAR!" Vision blurry from tears but I still saw my words stab him like a knife, "YOU LEFT ME IN THE RAIN! WHEN I NEEDED YOU THE MOST! WHEN YOU NEEDED ME THE MOST! YOU ABANDONED US! LEFT ME IN THE RAIN LIKE AN UNWANTED KITTEN!"
Without thinking I turned back to face the water, "Phil, please! Come home! Don't do this! I love you!" Those words shook me to my core. Home. Love you. Those words seemed to have some sort of meaning when it was Dan saying them. Every inch of my soul was telling me to run into his arms, but my feet stayed in place. ¨Phil... Please...¨
"Dan... I want to believe you... You have no idea how much pain this has caused me!" Without thinking I found myself turned back once again to face him. Hot tears now covering every inch of my face, "I drove by your house the other day..." I watched as his expression turned into a mix of sadness and fear, "I saw your dad throw you off the balcony and beat you! I WANTED SO BAD TO HELP YOU AND PUT A BULLET THROUGH HIS HEAD! BUT I WAS SCARED OF YOUR REACTION! I WASN'T SCARED OF HIM DAN! I'M NOT SCARED OF YOU! I'M SCARED OF MYSELF!"
"Phil..." Dan slowly moved closer to me, his hand out in front of him to hold mine, "Come home, please...?" The closer he got to me, the more I felt my heart start to fix itself like somehow he was mending it with his presence.
