The problem of hiding my emotions is the fact that they build up. So of course there are periods of time when I feel good. But often something or someone will trigger them.
Take for example, I strongly assume your parents or parent has yelled at you at some point. Well, when that happens, my parents usually starts of with ranting about every fault I have, shoves in things about how I should do better, and ends with being sidetracked about something else that pisses her off.
I know this is tough to read, so think about how it is to live it. Never meeting up to their standards, and they being annoyed when you cry over it.
Or maybe it's just a passing thought, that begins to spread. My mind gets darker and darker and darker, and then I can't take it anymore. Most of these times I excuse myself; I have mastered crying quietly. It is so no nobody knows.
But most of the time it's my parents. For my father, I want to live up to his expectations, but when he criticizes me I feel like a failure. My mother, well fucking hates me. So by default I hate her. We pretend to be normal and civil but mostly we piss each other off.
Yeah it's just gonna be me bitching about shit.
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PoetryThe mind can be dark place sometimes. The body is what covers it. No one knows what's underneath... "The problem of hiding my emotions is the fact that they build up." The random crap that goes through my head; an entire school year's worth of poetr...
