Just love me already (PHAN)

Chapter 5: I found a purpose to live

Phil's view

Dan stared at me for an awkward amount of time. "Look... I know you probably don't feel the same way..." I started. "But I would like to stay friends. Can we just act like this never happened?" I ask. Dan smiles at the ground shaking his head. "Do you really think we can still be friends?" Dan asks. I sigh. "Of course not! Because Phil! I... I love you too! I've loved for a long time! In fact I was going to ask you out today! That's why I planned the fancy dinner and such! But looks like I don't need to! We can just cancel and go home!" Dan said with an excited voice. "Do you really think that we are going home?" I ask. "You planned all of this! For me! That is amazing of you! You wasted a lot of pounds on this! We are going to that damn dinner!" I said. Dan smiles. "Fine. I'll call a taxi." He said.

Dan's view

This is the best day of my life I finally am dating Phil. This is officially our first date and I need to make it perfect. We get in the taxi and start to head towards the resteraunt.

"Phil. Can I just say... That-" I look over his shoulder to see him crying. "Phil? Are you okay?" I ask. He turns around and shows me the napkin I wrote on. "Daniel you are amazing. And since we're dating now, I am okay if you hate yourself, but please let me help you. Promise me that we'll stop you from cutting at least try to stop you." Phil said with tears in his eyes. "I... I promise..." I said. Phil hugs me tightly with his head in my chest.

Phil sort of hugs me lighter until I notice he fell asleep on my chest. "Right. You did not get any sleep..." I mumble smiling.

Good fucking job, Dan. Wait what did I do wrong this time? Oh you didn't do any thing wrong... Yet. Hey! I'm saying that you are finally dating Phil! Wait is my brain actually proud of me? I think what your asking is that are you finally proud of yourself? The answer is yes. Sooo I don't hate myself? No you still do. You just found a new reason you want to live. Your new boyfriend. I smile.

"Phil..." I whisper in his ears. "Thanks for giving me a purpose to live." I whispered smiling. Phil smiles in his sleep. "So cute... I love you so much." I mumble.

I put my arm around Phil's back and put my head on his head. "Phil... Promise me if anything goes wrong between us that we'll still be friends." I mumble. Phil rolls over. "You're my best friend and boy friend. I will never let anything bad happen between us. And if anything does then I'm sure we can figure it out. I can never stay mad at you..." Phil said as he rolls over my chest still half asleep. "And I-I can't stay mad at you..." I said smiling. "I would never ever EVER want to lose someone as precious as you." I add.

We get to the resteraunt and Phil has already fallen asleep on my chest. "Phil get up. We're here." I said. Phil groans. "But you're so comfy. Can I sleep on your chest in the resteraunt?" Phil asks as he rubs his eyes. "Phil this is a fancy restaurant." I said as I rub his back. "Ugh fine how does my hair look?" Phil asks as he sits up from my chest. "Uh- R-Really nice." I said as I blush a little. "Are you sure?" He asks. "Better than mine." I said as I hand the taxi driver some pounds. "Yeah right your hair is always great!" Phil said as he gets out of the taxi. "But your hair is better." I said as I get out the taxi. "Yeah right!" Phil said. "Yours is better!" I said. "No yours is!" Phil said.

We walk in the resteraunt and take our seats. "Thanks." I said to the waiter. "So Phil what do you want to drink?" I ask. "Meh just a water." He shrugged. "We're at a fancy resteraunt and you want water?" I tease. "I don't like fancy drinks." He complained. "Alright." I said shaking my head smiling. As Phil is looking at the menu I couldnt help but stare at how nice he looks in a suit. "You look handsome Phil, you know that?" I said. Phil dropped the menu and squinted. "What?" I ask. I turn around and see Chris. "Heh give me a second." I said as I walked over.

"Dan! Is it going awkward or? Do I need to sit with you? Did it go bad? Did you tell him yet? Are you too scared to admit your feelings? Do you want me to stay?" Chris asked. "Look I know I said to come here just in case but... Phil actually-" I pause. "You know what I'll text you what happened later." I said.

Chris's view

"Are you sure?" I ask. "Let's just say... Phil is having fun and so am I and it cant get worse than it was earlier." Dan said with a smile. "Okay... Just call me if anything goes wrong." I said. "Okay. I'll text you later. And thanks." Dan said. "Well bye see you later." I said.

I stood there and watched Dan go back to his seat. Phil starts talking and then Dan laughs. I smile at them.

I walk out of the resteraunt and turn around and see through the window Dan putting his arm around him. Phil leans in and kisses Dan. Oh my god. Phil's lips let go and Phil continues to talk smiling at Dan as if the kiss was nothing. Dan laughs and puts his head on Phil's shoulder. Wait how? How and when did they become a couple? Maybe... Maybe you should butt out of their business and let Dan tell you later like he said. I hate you brain.

Phil's view.

Dan removes his head from my shoulder and looks at the menu. "Phil do you want to share a steak and get a big plate of mashed potatoes with gravy?" Dan asks. "Sure." I said as I adjust his hair. "Hold on there's a hair sticking out." I said as I lick my finger to fix it. "There." I said.

"Pfft whatever. Oh hold on your hair is sticking out." He said as he licks his finger and adjusts my fringe. "Hey that's how I like my fringe!" I said. "I know that's why I did it." Dan said smiling. "Oh no now I cant fix it!" I groan. Dan starts laughing as I am struggling to fix my hair.

"Mm hmm..." A man coughed as he waits for us. "Oh sorry." I said as I turned around to see a man who looks like Chris but with lighter hair. "My name is Chad and I will be your waiter today." The waiter said. "What would you like to drink to start off?" He asks. "We'll just have a water." I said. "And to eat?" The waiter asks. "We're going to get two separate steaks both medium rare with a plate of mashed potatoes with gravy, please. And for the appetizers, he'll get the salad and I'll get the soup. Anything else you want, Phil?" Dan asks. How does he know what I want and say it in such a smooth voice without stuttering or messing up? "Nope. That's all." I said. "Okay we'll get this started." The waiter said as he walked off. "Thanks." Dan said.

Dan takes off his blazer and grabs a permanent marker from the inside of his jacket. "Hey Phil?" He said as he shakes the marker. "We are not drawing whiskers on our faces." I said. Dan lowers his head. "Until we're done eating to not get marker in our food." I said with a smile. Dan grins. "Okay!" He said.

(Authors note)

Aww I finally like myself for writing this. Because I hated myself writing the chapter of them arguing. And when Dan almost stabbed himself.