Just love me already (PHAN)

Chapter 16: I'm fine.

Phil's view

Embarrassed I walk off stage and head towards our seats. The music cut off and Dan couldn't seem to find me. I didnt really want to talk to Dan though. I'm not mad at him... I just... I'm embarrassed. Was this all joke? Did he do that ALMOST kiss for a joke? And if he did was it a joke for the fans who know who we are or a joke for me? Either way I don't want to talk to him. He's gonna say he is sorry but... I'm not mad at him. I'm mad at myself. What was I thinking? Like he was gonna kiss me... He loves me but... I don't know if he loves me as much as I love him...

"Phil! Phil! Where you going!" Dan yelled as he ran towards me. I dont turn around. I keep walking towards our seats. "Phil. I'm so sorry! I wasnt thinking! I-" I interrupt him. "Its fine, Dan.." I said without looking at him. "No it's not. Phil look at me!" Dan yelled. I turn around and slightly look up at him. "Don't do that thing where you slightly look up at me." Dan groaned. I look into his beautiful brown eyes. "I just felt embarrassed that's all. I should've known you wouldn't have kissed me." I said trying to look into his eyes. "What do you mean? Do you think I don't love you?" Dan asked. I look down and put my hands in my pockets. "No I know you love me it's just I don't know if you love me as much as I love you..." I said as my eyes start tearing up. "What? Do you think I'm in love with Chris!?!" Dan said as he grabs my face and forces me to look at him. "What? What makes you think that I think that!" I ask. "I dont know you seemed strange ever since we talked with Chris! And the messages! Look point is. I love you more than you can imagine. I just... Don't know how to show it... I'm awkward and I always find a way to fuck it up. Ugh I just... I am so sorry..." Dan said as he lets go of me and stares down at his feet. I can see his eyes start to tear up. I pull him close and hug him tightly. "You dont fuck up. You always find a way to make it better." I said smiling. "Here you forgot this." Dan lets go of me and hands me my camera. "Hey my camera!" I said grabbing it.

"Also what did you do with your phone? You recorded it before we ran on stage." Dan said smiling. I stare down at my hand holding my phone and lift it close to my face so I can see it. "It's still recording." I said. "Well at least we got two pieces of evidence of what happened. The sound guy who for some reason played the internet is here and I think he thought we were artists so he played the fucking song and filmed it with the camera you dropped. Also I took the tripod." Dan had his arms behind his back and showed the tripod. "Dan!" I said. "What? It's their fault they used your camera. Plus I'm sure they have hundreds of tripods its fine." Dan said as he leaned his arm against the tripod. "We already have one!" I said. "Yeah but this one is better!" Dan said. I groan. "Fiiiiine. We'll keep the tripod that we stole from muse." I said rolling my eyes. "It can be a souvonier! To remember how we sang in front of hundreds of people, some that didn't even know who we are, that we sang the internet is here. And the sound guy took the camera and set it up. Sounds like a great YouTube video. We should film it when we get home." Dan said.

I shake my head smiling as I turn around and continue walking. Dan grabbed my hand as he started to check his phone while carrying the tripod in his arm. Dan holds up his phone. "Hello Instagram! So Phil and I are at a concert to see muse and well, Phil care to explain what happened?" Dan asked as he turned towards me. "Are you filming?" I ask. "Yes Instagram needs to know this shi-" the time ran out for the Instagram story.

"So basically we took the wrong enterance." I started. "Oh did we Phil?" Dan asked shoving his phone in my face. "Yeah and then we got caught so we started to run and I dropped my camera." I said. "And then what happened Phil?" Dan asked. Dan kept zooming in on me. "Stop." I said laughing. The story timer ran out again.

"Well then we got cornered so we ran on stage and you won't believe what happened it was um.." I pause. "What happened next Phil?" Dan asked. "Well the sound guy set up my camera on a tripod and started filming and then he-" The story timer ran out again.

"The sound guy started to play the internet is here and not knowing what to do we started singing it. And it was crazy. It was as if we were on the amazing tour is not on fire." I said nodding. "Mhm." The timer ran out again.

"Oh and then when we got off stage Dan grabbed the camera I dropped and also took the tripod." I said. Dan flipped the camera around. "It was worth it!" Dan yelled. "We already have one!" I said. "Well I'm sure they have a lot so its fine!" The timer ran out again.

Dan put his phone away and we got to our seats. "Ready for the best concert ever!" Dan asked. "Yeah I guess!" I said smiling. Dan grabbed my hand and kissed me. "After this we should..." Dan winks at me. "Dan!" I said embarrassed. "What? I meant we were gonna go get drunk! And then maybe.." Dan winks at me again. "Dan!" I said as I bury my face in my hands. "Play the Sims! Duh!" Dan said punching my shoulder lightly. I groan. "I'm joking. After this we should call Chris and then get a ride home. Because I've had enough with taxis. Plus I might buy some beer or wine." Dan said as he put his hand on my shoulder. "Dan!" I said. "Okay fine. We won't buy any beer or wine. Yet." Dan winked at me again. "Ugh whatever." I said smiling. Dan smiled back at me.

"Okay welp one photo couldn't hurt." Dan said pulling out his phone. "Dan!" I groaned. "It'll be real quick I swear!" Dan said as he raises it. "Say I love you!" Dan said. "I love you- wait-" Dan pulled me in close and kissed me as the photo was taken. Dan lets go of me and starts to adjust the brightness and fix some of it as if its no big deal that he pulled me close out of shock and kissed me for a photo.

"Hey, Phil? Should we mess around with our fans and kiss on our Instagram stories?" Dan asked. "Uh but shouldn't we you know? Make a video before we do that?" Phil asked. "Pfft. So? We could just explain "So there is a new upcoming video and try to have them guess and then very last second I say 'Too late for guessing!' And kiss you?" Dan said smiling. "Ugh okay but hurry up I don't want to miss the concert." I said.

Dan smiles as he opens Instagram. "Hey can you guess what video is coming up?" Dan asks. "Too late for guessing!" Dan said. He pulled me in closely and kissed me as he used one hand to hold my face and i use one of my hands to hold his as Dan uses his other hand to hold the camera. "I know you have been wanting this for a long time now!" Dan said as he let go of me. Dan ended the video. I hesitate and pull out my Instagram. "So if you watched Dan's story you know that yes we're dating now. So we're actually at muse waiting for the concert to start so you know and we're gonna try to go home film our whole love story and edit as quick as we can." I said smiling at the camera.

I turn off my phone and sigh. "Dan... I'm worried. And scared. About what we just posted." I said softly. "Oh it'll be fine. I swear. What? They'll send 'GAYYYY'? They wanted us to be gay in love forever now!" Dan said. "Okay..." I said. Dan checked the time. He sighed. "We still have an hour till the show starts." Dan said. I dig through the backpack and pull out some snacks. "You brought snacks?" Dan asks. "I always bring snacks." I responded. "Jesus Christ Phil." Dan said as he smiled into his hands. I eat some crackers and find myself laying down against Dan's chest. Dan rubs my fore head which seems like a hypnotizing thing because i end up falling asleep on him.

(Author's note)

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