Is he really gone?

XII

I was woken up by Eren, who started shaking me. I starting grunting. "5 more minutes", I put the sheets over my head. Eren didn't have it and ripped away the sheet from me, leaving me without a blanket. "You are on duty now", Eren said holding the sheet. I grunted again. "Fine!", I stood up completely sleepy. Eren sighed and splashed water in my face, the water was so freezing cold, I immediatelly woke up, holy shit. I gasped the moment the water hit my face. "Jesus Eren, I almost lost my breath there", I said soaked in water. 

I went to the bathroom, do my toilette business and dry my face. I get some clothes on, yes I was sleeping almost naked! I still had my underwear on. I mean I had a black shirt on and my grey boxers, that how I sleep usually. I took the jeans from a chair that was standing near my bed and put them on. "Alright I am ready", I said looking at Eren. Did I describe Eren before? I don't remember I did that, let me do that shortly. Eren was about 180 cm tall, he had short dark brown hair, his eyes were brown. He wore a usual white shirt with nothing on it and blue jeans. His shoes were brown too. He was actually slim, kind of like me. 

"Just go straightfoward, do not replicate the titanic and we good, got it?", Eren asked me. "Yes I got it Eren", I confirmed it. I went outside the room and went into the cockpit, I sighed and sat near the handle that controls the speed of the ship. We need to be close to the island, it shouldn't be far away. 

I sat there trying to find something to do, I really didn't know what to actually do, I sat there and starred at the wall. Are there any books I could read? There must be something. I looked towards the table next to me and saw some books on there. I stood up from the chair and checked out what the books were called. There was IT from Stephen King, Ana Karanina from Lew Tolstoj and Fifthy Shades of Grey by E. L. James. I sighed when I seen that dirty book, I better not read that, it freaks me out. I thought, let's try reading IT, I heighended my shoulders and took the book, sat down on the chair and started reading. 

All of sudden, I seen a red ballon fly across the cockpit, what the freak is going on? I could see the door opening slowly, some claws were visible suddently. I started panicking and I suddently woke up gasping. Jesus! I had a nightmare about Pennywise, my god this book really gets you good. I was breathing really fast, I was so glad it was a dream, I swear if Pennywise would hunt me right now, I rather die. No not really, please I don't want to die again. 

I put the book back on the table where I found it and checked outside the window. Wait, was that an island? Is that an island! Oh my god, don't tell me! We are close! I started getting very excited. I did it, I finally did it, I couldn't keep calm, my foot was shaking violently, it was like going up and down. I could hear the door opening and Eren entered. "So? How is it going?", Eren asked. I pointed towards the Island. "Look! We are close!", I said still excited. "Oh dear lord, we indeed are! I am really happy for you", Eren exclaimed showing happiness. 

All of sudden the ships cockpit opens slowly, Eren and I hear the door making this shreeking sound. We looked at eachother, who could it be? A girl walked in, I took a moment and looked at her face. I made an angry expression and drew my pistol. "T-Teresa? What are you doing here! How did you get here!", I had so many questions. "Newt, please listen, I have so much to tell you", she heigened her hands, showing she was not armed. Eren double checked her. "I swear, if you touch my butt, I will take you down, with my own fists!", she almost yelled. "I am just checking if you are armed, nothing more", Eren said innocently. "She is unarmed", Eren exclaimed. 

Newt and Teresa sat down on some chairs while Eren was taking over the ship. "So, when I was falling, I managed to grab myself onto some metal hook near a building, before it was falling appart I slowly climbed the building down, when I was on the ground, I could see your body, Newt, I still had the cure in my hands, I mean I gave one Thomas and I secretly made another one, keeping it in my pockets. So I used it on you and revived you", she explained. "Look Newt, I am terribly sorry, I realised what I did, I will never do that ever again, I swear!", she tried convincing Newt. 

I sighted, I didn't know what to say, I put my hand over my lips just trying to think of something. "I know that...", she wanted to continue speaking when I stopped her. "Please, Teresa it's fine, let me think ok?", I simply said. She nodded. I stood up and walked up to Eren. We started whispering. "What shall we do?", I asked him. "I really don't know what to say, Newt, I do not know her that well, I only know she was working for WCKED", Eren responded. 

I exited the cockpit and walked in the hallway, thinking very hard. I couldn't trust her! It was simply impossible! What would Thomas do, does he trust her? Fine, I will trust her, I sighed and walked back in. I found her in the same position, like she was before. "Fine I will trust you, but I swear, if you do another wrong move, I will put the trigger on you", I threatened her. "Fine, fine I swear I will behave", she tried sounding innocent. 

I made food again today, so we ate all together and just tried talking about something else, trying to forget the bad memories, Teresa and I experienced. I could notice that I couldn't keep my eyes from her. No! I am NOT in love! Don't think that, I am just watching her, I still can't fully trust her!