Heartbreaks that changed my life

The Last Time

I seriously don't know how I am filling in all these episodes of her. The emotion is way too heavy for someone like me.

That was the last lunch we had together. Later days, we never got the chance to come face to face like we used to do. Friendship fell apart. We behaved as if we never met or knew each other. I felt as if I was returning back to my attitudal form of mine. She had stopped all of these. But, everything returned back. I felt that Sharath was my only friend. I remember how many times we faked ourselves as if nothing happened and everything was all right. She had her new friends, classmates and a studious life. I had my old life. In the midst of a common ongoing life, I could feel the emptiness of the wind blowing in the desert. Blank and boring life. Somewhere at the ending times of 7th std, I came to know that even I was changing school for the next academic year. My parents' plan to shift to Chandapura was soon to be executed. How could I tell this to her? Or is it necessary that I should let her know about this? I had to keep calm. I didn't tell anything about this to her. I told about this to Sharath. He said nothing but kept quiet. Our final days were during the annual exams.
"How was your exams?"
"Ya they went good. What about yours?"
"Yes they were also good"
"Ok fine. I gotta leave."
"Ok fine. Good luck with the next exam"
"You too"
I remember these conversations and the best but sad part came when I used to stand there and expect her to turn back, come back and speak. Atleast I could see her happy face. And at the same time, I didn't have the courage to stop her because I had promised her something and I could not afford to break the promise. But she never turned back. I just don't know how I was taking all this inside me. I remember the last day of the exam, the last day and time I would be seeing her. Neither did she know this nor did I know. She came up to me and said "Thank you for everything." I replied back "Hey, it's ok". She just stood there smiling. I asked her "Aren't you getting late?" She replied back "No. I don't feel like going home. I just want to be with you." I was out of reactions. I couldn't say no. She held my palm and asked me "Get me something to eat na." I was searching for money in my pocket. She saw this and said "Robi, keep your money. I have 200 rupees." I didn't say anything because I had only 30 rupees. So shameful of me. So we went to a nearby chat store. We had gobi manchuri and fruit juice. I still remember how happy she was, having lunch in peace with her friend. Finally we had her favourite butterscotch ice cream. I can't forget, all those people staring at us like criminals. I was feeling awkward or you call it shyness. She was observing all this and she said "let them think of us whatever they want to think of. you are and always will be my best friend. now it's my treat. you will eat slowly without feeling bad". I just nodded my head. Evening 4:00pm. Time to bid farewell. Didn't expect this to be the last time we would be seeing each other. Before saying bye for the last time, she said "You know what! I don't feel like letting go of your hand now." And I am like "what can I tell her?". Two twelve year olds are discussing this. Are they really into something new. No answers.
I just said "It's time to go home. You will be getting late. Even uncle is not there with you now. Will you go home safe? Should I come with you now?..." She stopped me in the middle and said "Robi! Robi! Calm down... I will be alright... And once again thanks for everything..." I can't forget those beautiful eyes full of happiness. And she left. Just a few steps and she turned back and shouted "Bye!! Robi... Miss You... Happy Holidays..." I said "Bye"... I still cry in silence that this goodbye would always remain a happy as well as a sad goodbye. That was the last of her with me in live and real...

I can't forget those days Khushi, your eyes and that beautiful face full of hidden but true love and happiness all that she had for me... Why is fate so cruel?? Why is she irreplaceable?? Why is the unchangeable angel of my life?? Questions arise and she is the only answer I have ever known....

So what happened next?
How and why did her chapter come to an end? What did she leave behind for me?
Everything in the coming episodes!!!