Luck of a Chubby Girl

Chapter 16

I woke up late the next day. My head was throbbing and my eyes could barely adjust to the light. I had left the blinders on my room open and the clarity from outside was coming in. my phone was ringing very loudly and I groaned before looking at my alarm clock and realizing that it was already almost noon. I immediately stood up, which only made me dizzy for a moment. It was no time to still be in bed. I knew I would sleep in after going out with Mindy the day before, but I didn't think it would be until so late. I picked up the phone from my headstand and stand back down.

- Hello? – I answered.

- Hi, Olivia! I was just wandering if I could pick you up in about half an hour. – I recognized Jacob's voice.

My mind went blank for a minute, I was sure I looked awfully confused in that moment.

- Pick up? – I mumbled quietly into the phone.

- Yes... For our lunch? – his voice was wobbly. The confidence his tone had at the beginning of the conversation was now gone. – Did you forget? You want to reschedule? We can meet up another time...

- Oh, no! – I immediately rebutted. – Of course, our lunch. Just give me... forty five minutes? I woke up a bit late today and need some extra time to get ready. Is that okay? – I was feeling really guilty about not remembering and making Jacob feel bad about it. I was decided to make it up to him.

- Sure! See you soon, then. – I could picture the smile on his face as he said that, making me smile as well.

- See you – I retorted back.

As soon as I hung up I grunted, a hand on my forehead trying to gather my thoughts. I was still on my dress from last night and I was sure my face was a mess because of the smudged make up leftover. I had a slight headache, but it was not strong enough to drag me down for the rest of the day. I drank some much needed water and popped in the shower. I was now feeling a lot better as I cleaned up and it wasn't until I was busy washing my hair and letting my thoughts run their course that it came to me.

I froze with my hands in my hair, shampoo dropping down, my breathing and heartbeat stopping for what seemed like an eternity as the realization it me. The memory came slowly at first, a vague recollection at first. But suddenly it sped up, the details all clearing up and an unnerving image stuck on my head.

I kissed him. Sure, it was only on the cheek, but I was sure it caught him completely off guard and made him question what the hell I was thinking. It was not like we were that close to begin with. I went completely out of line. He probably wanted nothing to do with me anymore.

As I was in the middle of having a panic attack, the shampoo from my hair dripped down and caught my eye, making me jump as my eye started to burn and I had to wash it off. It pushed me out of my thoughts for long enough that I calmed down. I started to breathe slowly and recomposing myself as I finished my shower.

In a more serene state of being, I understood that what was done was done. There was no point beating me up for it. I had to accept whatever consequences my actions had. Maybe I was overthinking this. Maybe he didn't even remember it. He was quite sleepy last night, perhaps he forgot or mistook it for a dream. Maybe. I would not hang around him long enough to find out, though. I decided it was best for me to keep some distance from Aiden. Both for him and for me.

So I cleaned up and got dressed in a turquoise blouse and dark jeans. I wore my hair in a simple braid to the side and put on minimal make up. Jacob texted me that he was waiting for me in front of my building, so I grabbed my leather jacket that would keep me warm and my purse and got out of my apartment.