Meredith's Thoughts Volume 2

Done

I'm done with saying that my feelings are stupid. Because they're not, no matter what you think.
I miss Travis, okay?
I have a right to.
And it's not dumb that I do.
But I understand that it's not socially expectable to say anything about it outside of this book.
But yes, I miss it.
A lot.
I'm still thinking about it all.
Missed opportunities and everything.
How at one point I thought he cared and how I feel like it blew it.
And how excited he made me and how happy.
But also how sad and stressed I was.
But yet I still miss it and him.
And I just, I just do.
I don't really know what to say.
It ended like it was nothing.
And it hurts.
But at the same time I feel nothing.
He was cute.
But I have expensive taste,
And bad luck.
It's going to be a long time until I get over him.
No amount of perfectly constructed sentences will create a beautiful closure.
Just so you know, ya know?
It's not that I'm mad or frustrated or whatever I'm just, all of the above.
I'm just, *frustrated sigh type thing*
Yeah, like that.
:/