CONNECTED G.D.

Chapter 10

Rains Pov:

I cant believe I did that. I was disgusting and damaged. I knew someone like Grayson couldnt like someone like me. Damn HIM for doing this to my body. This is all his fault. He ruined me for life and now no one will ever love me.

Flash back:

"Don't move" He yelled. I was so scared I couldn't stop crying.

" BITCH I SAID DONT MOVE" He yelled louder. Then all of a sudden He slashed a huge gash into my stomach. I screamed so loud that I think I lost my voice. He smiled and started laughing. This was not the man I thought I loved. But I guess when your 15 no one really loves you.

" I like it when you scream" He said sadisticly. I closed my eyes which was another mistake because there were several more gashes to the side. At this point I knew I was going to die. Then when he was done cutting me up he decided it was time to rape me.

Present:

"RAIN! RAIN! RAIN!" Someone yelled. I could feel someone shaking me. When I looked up I realized I went into a panic attack on the ground. Everyone was looking at me while I was huddled up in a ball. When I go into panic attack I usually scream really loud and cry hysterically.

I looked up and saw it was Ethan shaking me.

" What the hell was that rain?" he asked scared "did someone hurt you. Why were you screaming?" he kept asking questions I just couldnt answer.

I just shook my head. I coudn't even talk my voice was so raw. He just looked at me.

"can you walk?" he asked. I just shook my head.

All of a sudden he picked me up and carried me to his truck. He placed me in the passenger seat. I looked up at him and smiled. He apparently was not afraid of me or my scars. He looked at me like I was normal.

"here i grabbed your phone and stuff for you" He said handing me my phone.

"thank you" I said barely

"are you sure no one hurt you" he said concerned. Not in the way you think.

" No one did today" i said looking out the window.

" Are those where the scars came from? did someone hurt you?" he asked

I started crying while staring out the window. "yes" was all i could say

I opened my phone up and went on twitter to distract my mind. It has been two days since my mistake and I have been locked up in my room. I haven't even turned my phone on until now. I had 20 missed calls and texts from Grayson. I had 2 calls and texts from Ethan. I decided to listen to the voicemails first.

" Hey Rain it me. I really need to talk to you. I am so sorry for what happened at the beach. I was just really surprised about what happened. I had no idea something like that was the reason you never took your cover off. You are still beautiful to me. please talk to me" Grayson

"Rain please call me back. Im worried about you" Grayson

"I know I messed up. That kiss was nothing. It was just a fan and she kissed me out of no where" grayson

"I miss you" grayson

After the 8th message I couldn't do it anymore. I was crying and felt alone. If he knew the story he wouldn't feel the same about me. I was damaged goods. I was used and abused. I miss him so much. He was so nice to me. Ethan treated me like family. I cant keep living my life like this. I have to do something about my life.