CONNECTED G.D.

Chapter 32

Rain:
They wouldn't let me back with him until they moved him from ICU. I was sitting in the waiting room with his parents and brother Ian. His whole family was crying and I didn't know what to do. I couldn't cry. I was so frustrated. What the hell is wrong with me why can't I cry. It was like time was frozen and this was all just a dream. I would wake up back in Australia wrapped in Grayson's arms and James would be okay. I would call him in the morning and he would tell me all about his date with Tyler. Instead I'm in a hospital with no emotions at all. I couldn't even comfort Tyler or James's family. I was not worried about anything expect seeing
"The close family may come in and see James Charles now." The doctor said. I stood up and went to make my way to James but the doctor stopped me.
"Only immediate family ma'am." The doctor said.
"James is my family." I said.
"Sorry huh. You'll have to wait till visiting hours." He said.
"Don't worry sweetie we will be in there with him and I'll come sit with you as soon as I see him" his mom said.
"Thank you" I said.
"Go home and shower unpack and come back as soon as visiting hours come on." His dad added.
"Okay" I said.
I went back to the apartment and showered. By the time I was done unpacking and cleaning up the apartment. When I was done it was already 7 am.
When I got to the hospital it was visiting hours and James parents were just leaving.
"The doctors say he is doing much better. Now it's just up to him to pull through the coma." His dad explained.
"We are going back to the hotel to get some rest" his mom said.
"Okay" was all I could say. His mom grabbed me in for a long hug.
"He'll be okay" his mom cried. I still couldn't do anything or say anything. It was still to unreal. His mom let go and I think she understood what was going on through my head but I didn't even understand. When I walked up to James door I couldn't bring myself to walk in. What would my life be if he didn't make it through. I felt a hand on my shoulder and I turned around and saw Grayson.
"What are you going here" I said.
"You don't need to go through this alone." He said.
"You shouldn't be here. I'm fine on my own and I always will be." I sneered at him. I don't even know why I was so angry and being so nasty to Grayson.
"I know your just taking out your anger on me and that's okay because I promised I wouldn't leave you especially when you need me the most. I am your boyfriend and I'm going to be here for you" He said. I didn't have it in my to fight with Grayson. I just nodded and turned to the door. I grabbed the handle and walked in. I saw James Just laying here hooked up to a bunch of machines and the IVs hooked up to his hands.
I walked towards him and I couldn't help but keep staring at him. His eyes were closed and I couldn't help but touch his face.
"Where's his bracelet" I started pacing around the room and looking under his bed. "He doesn't go anywhere without it!" I started panicking. "I made it for him" I was starting to freak out. I felt someone grab me. "NO. Let go of me I have to find his bracelet!" I started screaming and hitting whoever was holding me. I could hear voices behind me but all I wanted to do was find the bracelet.
"Rain calm down. Please" I heard Grayson's voice. He was holding me now and rocking me.
"We will find the bracelet" He soothed. I started sobbing. I couldn't help it. All the emotions that were building up inside just started flooding out. Everything I was holding inside came out full force. Grayson just held me until I stopped. I guess I must have fell asleep because when I woke up it was dark outside. I looked up at Grayson's face and he was asleep still holding onto me for dear life.
I moved without managing to wake him up and made my way towards James. I sat down at the chair next to him and grabbed his hand. I started to notice certain things that I didn't before like the little freckles he had and his nails weren't done today. He would be very upset with all these hot doctors around. I giggled thinking about James being embarrassed he didn't look his absolute best with millions of doctors around. I felt the first tear fall.
"Come back to me James" I cried.
" I can't live without you. I love you so much."
I felt his hand twitch. I ran to grab a doctor all of him to tell me it's normal for coma patients to move some but it was also a good sign. He told me if I kept talking to him he might wake up. I decided I would talk to him so much he would wake me up just to tell me to shut the hell up.