Sabrina McLain:
"I'm not so sure about this..."
My doubt was clearly seen.
Bryson gave me a glance
and Lilly Nicole Porter
shot me a stern look
indeed.
I had never been ice skating before.
Kyle came up and took both of my hands
in his soft ones.
He looked straight into
my own haunted eyes
and he whispered,
"Come on, Brina. Trust me."
And I took a deep breath
as Lilly Nicole Porter
and Bryson
skimmed away across the ice.
And I took a wobbly step
forward.
And another.
And another.
And Kyle and I
stepped out,
with legs as wobbly as a
newborn deer,
onto the ice.
And I felt his warm hands
on mine.
And I felt my heart beat.
And I saw those eyes of his,
guiding me and comforting me.
He took a gliding step out,
gently pulling me with him.
I tried to calm myself.
But I was scared.
I was scared of falling.
And then it hit me.
All this time, after Dad's
d e a t h
I had been scared.
I'd been scared to seek help,
to be comforted.
I'd been scared to live
without Dad.
I'd been scared of falling down
down down down down
into depression.
I'd been scared of life.
All I knew was death.
Life was frightening to me.
And as Kyle smiled shyly at me
and blushed,
as Lilly Nicole Porter
and Bryson twirled past
on expertly smooth skates,
as Mom was out somewhere
on a date with her boyfriend,
as Baylee giggled with her friends
at a party,
I knew that even through all the scary stuff.
Even with loss and pain,
even with fear,
I had awesome support.
I had people;
friends and family alike
that would reach out and
catch me when
and if
I fall.
And so I grinned at Kyle,
the first grin in days,
and I pushed myself
onwards.
I pushed myself to the middle
of the ice.
I pushed on and on
because pushing myself
into the middle of life
into the middle of the rink,
was the way to
getting over loss.
And as I threaded my arms
around Kyle's warm torso,
as Lilly Nicole Porter
held my hand
and as Bryson smiled and
held her close,
I couldn't help but smile.
Because in the middle,
the view was pretty great.
YOU ARE READING
Dissipate: Book Two
Short StoryThe sequel to "Unnatural" this book is about Sabrina's life after another death. Sabrina is still writing to Jennah, her dead older sister, and Sabrina has a lot to write about. Her mother's so-called "friend from work" is suddenly her new boyfriend...
