Stars . {Phan}

F O U R

{Phil's pov}

It's been almost a week and I haven't left my room, instead, i've face timed Louise through my MacBook and have her come over and bring me food. She knows everything about Dan now as I had to have a reason for not leaving. 

"Philly, why don't we make a video? I'm sure it'll take your mind off things and your viewers will like to see you again." 

"What would we even do?"

Louise thinks for a moment and then pulls a bag out of her purse. "Phil waxes his legs!!"

"Do you just carry waxing strips wherever you go?" 

"Never know when you might just need a good waxing." 

"There's no way I'm doing that." 

Louise puts on a pout. "Well what do you want to do then, you can't just sit here forever Philly. Why don't we play Mario Kart in the lounge?"

"That's out of my room." 

"It'll be fun."

 Louise stands abruptly and grabs my arm pulling me down the all to the lounge. She lets go of my hand and turns on Mario Kart and we start to play, her using Dan's controller. 

"Hey, Phil? Where's your phone?" Louise asks once I've beaten her for the 7th time. 

"I lost it when I went out. I asked Dan and he just yelled at me so I didn't bother looking for it anymore, speaking of which we should get back to my room."

Louise shakes her head, "not going to happen, Philly, we've been out here for hours, and Dan hasn't left his room yet." 

I take mine and Louise's controller and put them back on the Tv stand. "Can we just go back to my room?" 

"Why don't we order pizza and watch some Netflix out here?" 

"ugh" 

"yay, I'll order the pizza." 

"I'm going to go get my laptop from my room." 

Louise nods and continues to tell the pizza man what we want. I run up the stairs and see Dan heading out of the bathroom, he looks horrible, there are bags under his eyes and he looks like he's getting thinner. 

"Dan?"

 He freezes in the middle of the hallway, it's as if someone has grabbed him and glues him there. "leave me alone Phil." 

"Dan, have you been eating?"  

He tries to ignore my question and push past me into his room, but I push back.

"Dan, fucking talk to me." 

Dan's eyes start to brim with tears. I hold my arms out and Dan collapses into them, hugging me like I'm the last person alive. 

"Can we chat in my room?" Dan hiccups. 

"Shh, calm down Dan, c'mon let's go." 

We walk into Dan's room and it's a mess, most of his clothes are thrown about, there's a hole in the wall and the only thing remotely clean is his bed. Dan sits on the edge of his bed, his eyes red and his cheeks puffy. I slowly sit down next to him 

"Dan?"

{Dan's pov}

Phil hasn't talked to me in a week or so, I'm mad at myself for hurting him to a point where he doesn't want to see me. I only leave my room for the bathroom, in this whole week the only thing I've eaten is a leftover pizza I found in the fridge at like 4 am when Phil was asleep. My room's a complete wreck. At the start of the week, I punched in my wall and emptied my whole wardrobe just throwing things everywhere. 

Louise has been coming over and going into Phil's room presumably trying to cheer him up. Today Louise is over and from what I can hear through our thin walls she's convincing Phil to leave his room, that means I'll be in my room all day today, which isn't different from other days. I sit and watch AHS for a while,  I finish a few episodes. 

I quietly slip out of my room and down the hall to the toilet as I don't want to see Phil. It's not that i don't want to see him, it's that I don't want to see the hurt on his face when he sees me. I quietly the shut the toilet door behind me and start walking towards my room. I freeze when I see Phil coming into the hallway to go to his room. 

"Dan?" 

"Leave me alone Phil." 

"Dan, have you been eating?"

My chest tightens until I can barely breathe, seeing Phil like this, his eyes have lost their happiness, it's as if he's only the shell of a human being. I ignore his question and try to push past him and get to my room before I burst into tears in front of him. I can't lie, I miss my best friend and it's all my fault he's sad. When I'm going through a hard time, Phil is always there for me and now that he's going through a hard time all I did was make it worse and then hide in my room for a week. 

"Dan fucking talk to me."

I can't move, my limbs won't work, and I'm crying. Phil doesn't curse, it doesn't matter if we're filming or not, he rarely ever curses. He holds his arms out and I fall into them. It's the best feeling in the world, having another person that you care about so much and just being able to have them comfort you. 

"C-can we chat in my room?" 

"Shh, calm down Dan, c'mon let's go."

 We walk into my room and I can see Phil's eyes scanning over the mess. I sit on my bed and start at my hands, I can't seem to find any words to say. 

"Dan?"

a/n: MY SCIENCE TEACHER WON'T STOP CALLING A GRADUATED CYLINDER "BIG DADDY" AND I CAN'T HANDLE, LIKE SHE DOESNT UNDERSTAND HOW ITS FUNNY BUT SHE THINKS THAT SINCE THE CLASS LAUGHS SHES GOING TO KEEP SAYING IT AND TODAY SHE MADE A WHOLE FAMILY OUT OF THEM. 

Big Daddy, Little Mommy, Jimmy, Tommy, and Sissy. hfbvajlbfljafdkvnd LIKE WHAT.

But anyway, surprise update :)