Why me? (Pokemon fanfic) Under editing

Chapter 47 Night is a...

>Emma's Pov<

I collapsed on one of the benches outside and buried my head in my hand.

~What's the matter Emma? I thought you like Red. Like, like liked Red~ Trust questioned.

"I don't know... I just don't think I'm ready." I shook my head.

"Emma?" I turned and looked at Sora. "What happened? I saw you and Red dancing then..." She trailed off and sat next to me.

"I... I don't know. I just don't think I'm ready... I mean all my life I've never know the true meaning of love, so I figured that I'm better off with out it." I looked at my lap. "I mean am I better off without any one? Whenever I let myself get close to people, me or someone I'm close to gets hurt... so am I better off not letting anyone close to me? I'm just so confused..." I sighed.

"I went through something similar ya know..."

"Really? when? you seem to get on perfectly with all your friends."

"A while back I was afraid of all my friends getting hurt so I just pushed them all away... made them think I didn't care. but let me tell you, they'll only get more hurt if you push them away."

"I don't know... I just need to figure this out on my own."

Sora placed her hand on my shoulder and I looked up her. "Emma just know that whatever you've been through in the past, we're your friends. You can trust us... I promise. we'll never leave you, no matter what. You need to understand that."

"I just... don't know how..."

"You can start by trusting us..." Sora smiled. "I'm going to go inside... you coming?"

I shook my head. "I'll stay out here for a while..."

"K, I'll let Silver know so he doesn't start thinking that you got kidnaped or something."

"Thanks Sora."

Sora went inside and I picked up my new Pokéball and rolled it round in my hands, not really wanting to open it.

~You're going to have to open it sometime...~ Faith told me.

I had told them all about mine and Night's time in the middle.

"I know..." I took a deep breath in and pressed the release button on the Pokéball, letting Night out.

"TOOK YOU BLOODY LONG ENOUGH!!!" She roared and I almost face palmed.

"A Vulpix!? Really!?" I burst out laughing.

"It's not that funny." Night said examining herself. "It's actually quiet nice..." She shook her orange fur and looked herself over.

"Hey you speak English." I stated

"Hmm... guess I do."

"Yeah don't speak to anyone though, just me and my Pokemon, k?"

"Why?"

"Cause I said so"

"Fine." She rolled her eyes.

I reached down to stroke her fur and she gave me a not-gonna-happen look.

I shrugged it off and leaned back against the chair and looked at the stars.

~So when are you planing on challenging the champion?~ Faith asked, trying to start a convocation

"ASAP..." I looked at my four most trusted Pokemon and sighed. "Guys listen after the league, I'm... we're going away for a while..."