Cold Water (Dark Niall)

18: "You don't understand."

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Previously on chapter 17:

"Tell me that you want me to drop it, and it'll be like we never did anything more than being friends." I say and lean back down. "Tell me now, and look me in the eyes. Otherwise I'll never know the truth."

He looks me in the eyes and opens his mouth, but he closes it back.

"You know what? You're not the fucking devil. You're a coward. And I am done." I say and stand back up, but he grabs the back of my neck and pulls me down to his lips.

For a moment, I don't even realize what's happening, until I do, and then I drop my bag to the floor and step closer to him so I'm standing between his legs.

We kiss and kiss and kiss, him sitting on the swing with me between his legs.

It's a slow, deep kiss, but it turns me on so much I can feel it through my entire body. My hands tangle in his hair and just as I want to squeeze my legs one by one between him and the swing, he breaks he kiss.

"I'm not a coward." He says, lips red and swollen. "But I am scared. And I just can't."

My face falls. "What can't you do?" I ask.

"I can't."

"You can't tell me to drop it?" I ask.

"No. I can't-I can't do this. Rey." He says and looks me in the eyes. "Drop it, please."

The sky falls on me, and everything crumbles.

"Okay." I say, faking a smile. "Glad you finally said it." Inside, I am fucking dead.

He frowns. "Are you okay with it?"

I nod. "Yeah." I smile. "I'm glad we settled this."

He looks sad, but I wait for him to get up for the swing before we go back to the guys.

"Well, it's late, I should get going." I say before we exchange goodbyes.

"I'll walk you to the car." Luke offers, but I insist it's not necessary.

"Oh come on, I need to get something out of the house."

I roll my eyes, trying to keep my emotions from showing.

As soon as we're out of eyesight, he turns to me. "Are you okay?"

"Mhm." I say, hoping he didn't hear the break in my voice.

"Look, you can't give up on him."

I sigh. "What are you talking about."

"Niall-"

"Luke, it's done. I'm over it. Please just-don't. Things are the way there are for a reason." I mumble just as we reach our car.