Goddess // Loki Laufeyson [Book 1]

⭐︎ Chapter 15 ⭐︎

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"Anna?" I hear a soft voice question in the distance making me cry even more.

I don't reply just stay in my position on the floor with my knees pulled against my body holding them as tight as possible. My whole body is shivering feeling all of the different emotions entering and leaving my body.

"What happened?" he asks carefully not raising his voice.

I don't dare to look up at him. Feeling ashamed of my current state. 

How can a mother threaten her own child's life only to save her own skin? Destroy a family only to save herself? So all these years I was right, I really did mean nothing to her as well as my father. He was just one of the toys she played with and I was the mistake that came out of it. We were an experiment of lust and pleasure and didn't mean anything else to her!

How can I stay here? In the place where everything happened? In a place where every time I turn a corner, a new question arises about myself. In a place where I don't have someone to talk to,  only people that I know nothing about. In a place where I feel lost and alone, scared and vulnerable. How is it ever going to be possible to feel at home here? 

I hear him slowly approach me and kneel down in front of me. He stays like this for a few seconds not moving a single part of his body, before he places both of his hands on each side of my head. Carefully guiding my face to look at him. His deep green eyes meeting mine as they have many times before and like always I feel my whole body warm up, melt with his touch and my heart beats a hundred times faster than it has ever before.

In his hands, I feel like an open book, a book that he had read too many times. It isn't possible for me to hide anything from him. It is like I am under his spell, a spell that I took willingly. Still, I don't want him to see me this way. He is going to think that I am weak and that is something that I don't want people to think about me in this place. I try to look away, but his hands steadying my head make it impossible for me to turn away.

"What happened?" He whispers again looking at me with so much worry in his eyes.

I try to answer him, but no sound is able to escape my lips. My heart was broken in so many pieces after finding out about my past, my father, and my mother. My mind is a combination of chaos and confusion that make it impossible to put any of the broken pieces together. I am a completely and utterly mess.

But with him on my side my whole perspective changes. It feels like between all the chaos there is a small glimmer of hope. Hope that one day everything will make sense and will turn out the way it is supposed to be. That one day I can say to myself that I am truly happy and that everything is like I wanted it to be. Only that small thought makes me open my mouth and say the name that has been lingering on my lips for a while now.

"Loki..." I sob barely audible.

Not able to say anything else I put my hand on top of his, which is still remaining on the side of my face, needing to feel his touch and warmth. I take a few deep breaths more tears leaving my eyes.

"My mother..." I continue breathing irregular and break down once again, my voice only comes out as a silent stutter.

Loki removes both of our hands from my face intertwining them and placing his second one on top of them, leaving my head unsteadied. He tightens the grip on my hand and gives it a reassuring and gentle squeeze.

I look down at our intertwined hands. They both fit perfectly together as if they are meant for each other. It feels like electricity running through my body. The warmth of his skin finally makes it possible for me to relax a bit and my heart rate comes back to normal. Still, it feels like I am going to explode in only a few seconds due to the feelings I am feeling towards this mysterious man. 

Finally, I am able to bring out a full, but short sentence. 

"She wanted to kill me." Another sob escapes my lips. The tears still not stopping to run down my face.

"Shhh..." he comforts me.

He releases one of his hands from mine and moves it towards my face gently caressing my cheek and brushing off my falling tears with his thumb. I look up at him realizing that our faces are only inches apart. I could feel his breath on mine and our noses almost touching one another. 

"I feel so alone," I whisper holding his hand even tighter not ever wanting to let it go.

Silence filled the corridor around us. The only sound visible for us to hear came from our two beating hearts joint as one. 

"You aren't...You have me." Loki says staring into my watery eyes. 

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