Fallen Angel {Shawn Mendes}

Chapter Thirty-Two

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~Alex's POV~

Today. Today's the day. Today's the day that Dallas died. Today's the day that I'm supposed to commit suicide.

Today, all I have done is sit around in the guest bedroom and cry, I've cried since the second I woke up.

No one has bothered to come into my room. No one wants to see me. I understand, I wouldn't want to see me either. I'm a complete mess. I don't think Dallas would want me to be crying over him, but I can't help it. Maybe Shawn could come over? Well it looks like some one can read minds.

**Phone Call**

From: The Boo Thangg

"Hello?" I answered.

"Hey baby girl, how are you?" He asked, sincerity in his angelic voice.

"Being honest?" I asked.

"Being honest," he repeated.

"Terrible, I'm breaking even more Shawn, I feel like I'm slipping out of reality," I admitted. "I need you."

"Do you want me to come over?" He asked.

"Yeah, I need someone to be with me, I don't want to do something stupid," I said. "Can you please come over? I just... I need to be held," I admitted, sheepishly.

"Okay, baby. I will be there soon," he said. I sighed a sigh with relief.

"Okay, bye," I said. "I love you."

"Bye baby. I love you too," he said then hung up.

I sat on the window ceil. Looking out at my aunts lawn. I was devastated. I wanted to be dead. I wanted to be gone. Not Dallas. He deserved to live. He deserved to be here. Not me. He didn't do anything to be gone. I did. I was the one who tried to commit suicide. I was the one who is still sad. There was a light knock on the door.

"Come in," I said. Shawn opened the door quietly and slowly.

"Hey baby," he said. I gave him a weak smile.

"Hey," I said. Tears already starting to well up in my eyes.

"Come here princess," he said. He laid down on my bed. I nodded and got up from the window ceil and crawled into bed next to him. "You're so amazing," he said into my hair. I looked up at him, and I remembered. I remembered how I fell in love with his voice, his eyes especially his lazy eye, his personality, and so so so many other things. I remember how I fell in love with him.

"I'm scared," I whispered.

"Scared of what?" He asked.

"I'm scared that one day, you'll leave me. I'm scared that I'll run into you on the street and I'll look down and find your fingers intertwined with another girls, and oh God, will she be beautiful. I fear that as I sit alone in a coffee shop or at a restaurant, that I'll look over at another table and see you, with a girl, looking at her with love in your eyes, just watching her laugh, and maybe that I may not have ever had the privilege of seeing that love. I'm scared that five, hell, maybe even ten years down the road, your warm, happy, honey colored eyes will hold the same look of sadness and discomfort they may have held for me. I fear that the girl of your dreams will be my polar opposite; oh-so-beautiful." I said, then paused.

"I'm so goddamned scared that I'll spend the rest of my life loving someone who doesn't love me back, simply because I'll still be caught up in the idea that you might love me back. One day. I'm so scared Shawn; I'm scared because I fell so goddamn hard and so goddamn fast. You made the falling easy and fun. But what if you decide you've had enough of my depression, insecurities, and flaws that you decide to leave? What am I supposed to do then?

"I just...I just, I need you to stay for as long as possible, because Shawn Peter Raul Mendes, I've fallen madly, deeply, and completely in love with you. I know I'm in love with you because whenever you're around, I get warm on the inside, and I feel the zoo in my stomach, and I can't think straight. I know I'm in love with you because when you're gone, all I want to do is be in your arms, having you hold me tight. When you're gone I feel like a part of me is missing. God Shawn. I - you're just, everything that I want and everything that I need. You make me want to get better; you make me want to be a better person; you make me want to stop being depressed, and let go of my ex. If that's not love, I'm not sure what is," I said.

"I love you too, Alexis, and I'm not planning on leaving you either. You're the love of my life, the four months that we didn't speak, I was so lost without you. I barely ate, and the only thing I really did was sleep, because there, I could see you, I could hold you in my arms again, I could be with you. God, you're literally all I think about when were apart, and when were together, I'm beyond happy, even if we're sitting around doing nothing, or if we're having a deep conversation. You're everything that I've ever wanted and more. This is gonna be embarrassing, but oh well, sometimes I picture us as a married couple and we'll have had two, maybe three kids together, we'll be sitting in the back yard, watching our kids play, we'll be laughing at their cheesy jokes. We'll be that one couple who's eighty years old sitting outside in our rocking chairs laughing at what we had done with our teenage years. And how we got married. And how we fell in love. I think about how we'll tell our grandchildren our crazy love story, and they smile at us in adoration. I think about how I want to spend the rest of my life with you, you're truly an amazing girl, and I couldn't ask for anyone better; simply because there is no one better," he said kissing my nose. This is how I know that Shawn and I may just make it in the log run together. He is everything that I want; everything that I need; everything for me.

~Shawn's POV~

I can't imagine how my life would be without Alexis. She's everything to me. And I can't lose her; not again. Everything that I jut told Alexis is true. She is just that. She is beyond ordinary, she is extraordinary. And I hope we do end up together for the next eighty years.

When Alex is like this; she is very vulnerable. And that's what I like. I like when she lets her walls down for me. I like when she lets me in, because she doesn't let much people in and I'm honored to be one of those very few people.

Yes, I feel like Alex and I will make it out together. I feel like it'll be Alex and I against the world. Shalex may just live on forever. Alex takes me to a place that I've never been to before; she's my own personal heaven. She's my heaven on earth. She's my save haven. She's my harbor on a stormy day. Alexis is truly, and always will be, the love of my life. This isn't puppy dog love, this is love that you get once in a lifetime.

She's everything that I could have asked for and more. She's much more than just a person; she's an angel. She's an angel sent down to earth. She's my angel. She's mine. Always has been, always will be. We met on that plane for a reason. We met for a reason, god sent her to me for a reason, and that reason is for me to save her and for me to fall so madly and deeply, in love with this beautiful girl asleep in my arms.

Alexis and I are two puzzle pieces that fit together; specifically made for one another. We were made for eternal love. And that's what's going to happen, we are going to love each other for eternity. We will be together until god knows how long. This girl will drive me crazy; a good crazy though.

Alex means more to me than anyone ever has. Alex is mine and only mine. I don't care about her past, I don't care that she has scars, I don't care that she is depressed. I'm here and I'll help her pull through. I'm here to save her. I'd be lying if I said that no one has saved me before, because Alexis Samantha Harmony has saved me. I'm her hero and she's mine.