Fallen Angel {Shawn Mendes}

Chapter Twenty-Six

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL FOR ME. I HAVE RIGHTS OF PASSAGE WHICH IS BASICALLY JUST GRADUATION FOR 8TH GRADERS. I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS. KILL ME. I'M WEARING A DRESS. WHOOPS.

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~Shawn's POV~

Alex and I got some chips and drinks and walked back up to my room. We talked about everything and anything.

"Can I ask you a personal question?" I asked Alex. She nodded. "Have you ever attempted suicide?"

"Yeah... Yeah... I have," she said nodding her head slowly. "Why do you ask?"

"Well, uhm, I was just uhm, wondering who found out?" I asked nervously, I was playing with her bracelets.

"My ex, Dallas," she said.

"Oh, well, can you, uhm, tell me about it?" I asked still playing with her bracelets.

"Shawn, stop being nervous! I'll tell you anything you wanna know," she said looking me straight in the eye.

"Okay, so can you tell me about it?" I asked again with more confidence. She nodded, and took a deep breath.

"Okay, so, uh, it was last year, and Dallas and I had been dating for about a year and a half, he knew I was severely depressed. And of course he knew that I self harmed at the time. He was there when no one else cared. He told me that I was the only thing that he'd ever loved, and at the time, he was the only thing I had ever loved as well. I cared more about him than I cared about myself. It didn't matter if I had a crappy day, I would always try and make him happy. Because that's what he did for me. We also had this deal, if I commit suicide he commits suicide too, and vise versa. Finally one day, I had enough. I had gotten bullied all day that day, and got death threats, all of that. And I called him, and told him today was the day. He told me not to, but I didn't listen. Dallas was slowly coming out from his depression, because of me, but I stayed in the same place, sad and worried and lonely and scared. At the time my sister still lived at home, so he called her after I swallowed 50 or more pills. She came through the door, tears streaming, and worried. My eyes had finally fallen shut, and I was gone. I saw the bright white light and I let it take me. Before I could fully be gone, I was getting shaken, causing me to leave the light, my sister called Dallas and told him to come pick us up, Dallas soon arrived and drove us to the hospital where they pumped my stomach. Dallas was there for everything. He was my everything, until he left. Dallas was driving from his house to come pick me up from the hospital, and he got hit by a drunk driver and died immediately on impact, is what they told us, anyways," Alex said a few tears had slipped from her eyes. I couldn't help but feel horrible, as well.

"I wish I could have met Dallas, I would've thanked him for saving the best thing in my life, Alexis, and that's you," I said holding her in my arms. She was actually crying by now.

"Thank you so much Shawn, you've helped me so much along the way. You're so amazing. You mean everything to me, and I'll never leave you, I just hope you don't leave me either, I love you, Shawn," Alex said kissing my hand.

"I love you too, babe. And I'll never leave you, okay? You're everything to me. And I'll never ever forget. You're to amazing," I said smiling at the beautiful girl in front of me.

~Alex's POV~

I told him everything, and I mean everything! He told me he'd never leave, which was very comforting. This just made me realize how much I love him, how much I know that he cares. I was still crying he was there to wipe my tears away, when someone knocked on the door.