when things happen to us, we handle it differently but we all have one thing in common. We each hold onto the pain deep inside. No one ever really lets the pain go unless we let ourselves come to terms with the pain of the past. Sure it may take times to come to terms, but you know what you will so much better. A wise woman once said " Forgiveness isn't for you it's for them. You have to forgive them for yourself. If you don't forgive them then you let them hold a piece of you." I firmly believe healing starts at the source. Once you deal with the object or person of your pain you start the process to heal your soul.
You don't have to deal with the pain alone. There are many people on here that will help and be there for you. Fight for your happy life, you are worthy.