Love is more than a number ❤️ Donghae (SuperJunior x reader) Complete

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Hey guys, so sorry for the wait, have been stuck for a bit with some writers block and been a bit stressed lately :D so here it is, enjoy! xx

"I'm really sorry... about all of this." Donghae said, still holding onto me.

"It's okay, it's not your fault," I knew he wasn't implying that it was his fault, but somehow I felt the obligation of telling him that.

"But still... this shouldn't have happened to you, any of it." Somehow he seemed upset but was trying not to show it.
It was nice to know that he cared. On a day like this, I could feel the longing for my moms comfort. It made me sad to think a day like that would never come again.

A hug from my mom could cure everything, that I was sure of. The warmth radiating from her always made me feel safe and secure like everything was okay and I shouldn't feel sad because she's holding me.

I kind of had a similar feeling to that right now, with Donghae having an arm around me for comfort. Of course nothing could ever replace the woman she was nor the mother she will always be in my heart.

"Can I ask you something?" Donghae questioned while bending his head, making it looks as if he had a double chin. I chuckled lightly at the sight, it was too adorable to miss out on.

"Sure what is it?" I smiled up at him, with my probably dark under eye circles that would make me look about forty-something.

"I didn't want to ask that day in the car, but where exactly is your mom?" I could feel his eyes glued to me as I looked straight ahead, with a lump now forming in my stomach.

It was inevitable though, he would eventually have asked about it anyway so why not now?

It felt safe enough to tell him, but my mind was not ready.

"Well... she.. she's... uhm. She's dead." I finally stammered out probably sounding like a moron for not being able to speak properly.

When he didn't say anything, I continued, "It's been three years since she passed. She had leukemia. In the end, she became so weak, it was horrible to watch. I really loved her, I still do and I miss her a lot." I buried my face into his chest.

"I'm so sorry to hear that. I know what it's like to lose someone you love, it's the most horrible thing you can imagine. I lost my dad about twelve years ago, he also had cancer. If there's anyone who knows what you're going through, trust me I know all about it."
His voice was sad and I could hear the heartbreak in it just like when I would talk about my mom.

I looked up at him with a tearstained face.

"I'm so sorry Donghae. I didn't even realize... It's probably weird to say this, but it's nice to talk to someone who's been through the same. So thank you for being here with me right now, I thought I would never be able to talk to anyone about it."

"It's okay how would you know? It doesn't sound weird at all, I feel the same way you do. Trust me it's better to talk to someone about it. What about your dad or sister, haven't you talked to them about it?"
He sternly looked at me when he mentioned my dad and sister.

Of course I hadn't talked to them about, when I did they would just shrug me off. How was I supposed to have a conversation with someone who didn't want to answer.

"Well... I haven't... it's like they don't want to talk about it. Every time I try to bring it up they shut me down."
I was frustrated, partly because they were shutting me out of their heads and mostly because I wasn't able to break through to them.

"I know it's hard. Even for family members it's not an easy subject to go by. But y/n, you need to get them to talk, it's the only way you'll heal together with time."
Donghae's words cut me like a knife and I felt like I was bleeding from my heart.

If I had just been able to meet him sooner, I could've been more at peace.
It was so nice to have someone with the same experience to talk to, because obviously he knew a lot more about it than I.

"I'll try harder to talk with them about it. It won't be easy... but I'm sure they'll talk eventually." I said, breathing in the hospital room air that surrounded us.

"That's the spirit. Hang in there, okay?" His words of encouragement made me come to like him even more. Why? Please stop heart.

I looked up at him, trying to study the many features he had.

The way his jawline sharply but softly rounded out his face, the way his lips curved just right, his eyes that sparkled so beautifully in the light, the small lines that formed when he would smile or laugh and his raven hair that fell just above his eyes.

Everything made him so perfect in many ways and I probably wasn't the only one who thought that.

I had become another one of those girls he had taken by storm with his good looks and charm. There were probably thousands of his fans who would envy me in a situation like this.

But it didn't feel like I was with a top Hallyu star. He was just normal to me, normally perfect.

"What is it? Do I have something on my face?" Donghae asked, trying to figure out if something actually was on his face.

I had been staring at him so long I forgot to actually make it discreet. Way to go y/n...

"No it's nothing. I was just looking..."
great now I sound like a creepy stalker. Just shut your mouth and don't do anything stupid!

He chuckled lightly then turned to me, he was now so close that our noses could almost touch.

I didn't dare move or breathe. The only thing I did was stare.
"There's actually something I've been meaning to ask you... would you like to finally go on a date with me?"
I almost fell down from the bed hearing those words.

Does that mean he's seeing me as a woman and not as a sister?
My face instantly grew hotter, he was probably looking at my bright red face and thinking that I was sick or something.

I nodded shyly at him, "I-I... would like that very much."
He then smiled and brought up a hand, lightly touching my cheek.

Thank you guys for reading!! Sorry for the delay! Hope you enjoyed, let me know if you liked it 😊