fix his heart | lippa

chapter quatre

"Mr Miranda!" She yells running up to me

"What's happening!" I sob

"We need to know do you want to do the surgery!" She asks

I think what would Pippa want.

I don't want her to leave this world in pain.

I cant say goodbye it's too soon.

Nobody taught me how to say goodbye.

I cant say goodbye.

But maybe it's for the best?

No.

I cant live without Pippa.

God damn it Lin! Stop thinking about yourself!

What would she want?

What would her family want?

I cant make this decision by myself.

I don't have time any time to call anyone.

Do I say yes or no?

"Mr. Miranda! Please this  decision could save her life!" The nurse yells

"I-uh- ok! Yes do the surgery." I stutter

She runs back into Pippas room and doctors come rushing out with her and there all yelling.

"OR 2! GO GO GO!"

"Come on Lin, I need you to sit you look so white. Groff insists

"Do you think she's gonna make it." I ask looking at him

"Pippa's so so so fucking strong Lin." He said

"Let's head back to my apartment well come back right after surgery." He tells me

"I- shouldn't we wait here?" I ask

"You need sleep." He said

He's right.
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I never fell asleep.

I spent the whole night looking at pictures of Pip and I.

All the fans know what's happening and have been sending there prayers but honestly I'm not so sure there working.

"Goodnight.
Feeling :( this cold night
Pippa is so strong.
I love and miss you."

I tweet and get tons of retweet's and reply's

I get a text from Renee, she must have saw my tweet.

Renee: Go to sleep, you need it everything is going to turn out just fine lin.

Lin: thanks I'm just really worried, why are you up there's a show tomorrow 😴

Renee: Kids are sick, go to sleep now i insist!

Lin: okayyy :(

Renee: <3 it's all going to be ok.

I put down my phone and actually try to sleep.

I slept for about 2 hours and then I was up it was 4am so I just said fuck it and stayed up.

The clock seemed to be moving so slow, I sit and stare at it.

They said they would call in the morning? Well it's the morning right?

What if something happened?

They would call me if she is gone right?

No but she can't but gone, I know she's not

But what if she is?

My thoughts took over, I sat on the floor shaking and crying. I cant deal with this anymore.

Maybe, maybe I should just go?

I mean I've done enough with my life and what's the point of living without Pip?

I sigh and wipe my tears

I go and sit on my couch and look at my beautiful view of the George Washington bridge. I yawn and start to scroll down Instagram.

5 hours later

I wake up to my phone ringing, I almost break the door trying to get to it.

"Hello?!" I said frantically into the phone

"Lin, It's Leslie." A voice said

"Oh" my heart drops

"Just checking in on you." He said

"Uh yeah, just waiting to hear from the hospital." I nervously chuckle

"Ok, well I'll let you go. Call me or any of the cast if you need anything we're all here." He said

"Thank you so much." I said hanging up

30 minutes pass

"Cmon cmon cmon" I whisper looking down at my phone

I'm all dressed and ready to run to the hospital, I think about my future with Pippa.

I stop myself

The doctors said the surgery could kill her.

My phone rings.
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