fix his heart | lippa

chapter sieze

"Time of death 09:15"

The doctors leave the rooms with there heads down

This isn't happening.

No.

I refuse to believe this.

It's all a dream.

This is all a dream.

Wake up Pippa.

Wake up Pippa.

WAKE UP

It's not a dream is it? This is reality.

I'm going to have to go on without Lin.

This baby isn't going to have a father.

This baby is the only thing of him that I have left.

Why did he have to go like this.

Why

Someone tell me why

I feel awful.

I feel numb.

I don't know what to feel.

"No..." I whisper to myself walking over to Lin's lifeless body

"Please no."

"Lin baby?" I grab his hand which has gone cold

He's gone.

I don't know what to do.

How to react.

I could have fixed his heart, I didn't know how badly it was damaged.

Only if I had more time...

Only if we had more time

This can't be happening.

I lean up against the hospital room walls trying not to faint.

I slide down the wall crying. I hug my knees into my chest and cover my eyes with my hands.

I need you Lin, why? Why did you have to go like this. It's not fair, please god give him more time.

"Miss? Do you have someone to come get you?" A unfamiliar voice says, I look up but my vision is too blurry from my tears

"No... I'm going home. I have to go."

I walk out the hospital

"Miss!"

"Miss!!"

I ignore the yelling and just leave.

I walk to the apartment, a few strangers stopped me on the way asking if I was alright, I wasn't. I just ignored there questions and kept on walking.

I get inside and start to pack my bags, I have to go.

I can't stay here too many bad memories, so many good ones too but the bad ones take over.

I wanna go back to Chicago, I wanna be with my family. I need my brother more than anything right now.

I grab my phone and pay for a flight to Chicago. The plane leaves today. Perfect.

I don't bother saying goodbye to the cast, I just have to go. I cant stay here.

3 hours later

That whole plane ride was miserable, we almost had to emergency stop because of me I couldn't stop crying and getting sick.

"Feel better and take care of yourself miss." The flights attend said to me as I get off the plane, giving me a weak smile

I nod and thank her