fix his heart | lippa

chapter sept

"I missed you so much." I said talking in a slight whisper since she was still kinda not really 100% awake yet

"I love you." She smiles still with a raspy voice, I have a feeling she's gonna have that voice for awhile but it's adorable

I smile at her and we sit there for a solid 10 minutes just staring at each other and smiling.

"How do you feel?" I ask as we both continue to stare into each other's eyes

"I think ok?" She says in a questioning tone

"Do you want me to get the doctor?" I say alarmed

"No, I'm ok Lin." She chuckles and I smile

"You know I heard everything." She said

"Everything?" I ask

"Yes, don't blame yourself for this. Everyday you came in and blamed your self. Don't do that." She says

"I couldn't help it, I could have protected you, I could have been there I wish it was me instead of you really." I sigh looking down playing with my hands

She picks up my chin making me eye to eye with her.

"No, you couldn't. I love you."

I smile at her beautiful face

"I love you more. Pippa oh I'm so happy I thought I lost you. Your up and your ok! I'm so so sorry I-" I sob

"Don't apologize, this is not your fault." She said wiping my tears 
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6 hours later

Pippa and I were in the middle of updating everyone and FaceTiming family but we get interrupted

There's knocking on the door

"Come in!" I yell

The doctor walks in

"Hello Pippa! How are you?" The doctor says

"I'm ok." She said I can tell she still doesn't really understand what exactly happened besides that someone shot her and I didn't explain to her because I couldn't without my heart breaking at the thought that I almost lost her

"Can you just explain what exactly happened?" She asks and I look at the doctor and he nods his head.

".......So the surgery worked perfectly it was a miracle you survived the shooting. The recovery process will be long but everything is working great all your tests are looking great." He finishes and I wipe my tears as Pippa sits there just in shock

I put my hand on hers and draw circles with my thumb

I feel a couple of tears escape my eyes but I wipe them away quickly

"Wow..." Pippa exclaims

There's a short silence, she just needed a moment to take that all in.

"When can I see friends and family?" She said quickly changing the topic

"In a couple of weeks you can have visitors, we just have to make sure everything is 100% ok." The doctor said and politely excuses himself

I could tell Pippa was eager to tell me something but she waited until the doctor closed the door

"Lin, I saw the other side." She said and I look up at her

"What?" I said shocked

"Just like the world was wide enough, I saw the other side." She said

"Wait seriously?" I ask

"Yes, I saw my grandma, grandpa and remember my college professor that passed away that I would always talk about? I swear I saw them all." She said

"What was it like?" I ask fascinated

"They told me that I wasn't finished telling my story, I thought I was dying. You know how they say in movies and stuff that your whole life flashes before your eyes well that really happens it's amazing but then I realized my time on earth was up." She said leaving me in tears

"It was actually kinda of amazing." She chuckles

"Well not the part where I thought I was dying." She said and i try to hold back tears but it doesn't work

"Lin stop crying!" She giggles

"I'm sorry! I'm so happy I mean look at you!" I said and she smiles

11pm

I watch Pippa as she started to fall into a deep sleep, she was so tired and I felt so bad leaving her but we needed clothes.

"Hey I'm gonna run to the apartment and get a few things do you want pajamas?" I ask in a whisper

She looks up at me and I can see how tired she is

"Yeah just sweatpants and a sweatshirt." She said drowsy

"Ok I'll be back." I said kissing her forehead
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I walk back into Pippas room with a duffle bag full of clothes and she's not in bed? How did she get up? I thought she was sleeping?

"Pippa?" I ask assuming she's in the bathroom

I hear crying, oh god what's happening

"Hey, Pip it's me come out." I said putting my ear against the door

"L-Lin?" She stutters

"Yes, are you ok?!" I ask

She comes out crying, I embrace her in a huge hug as she sobs into my chest.

"I'm sorry- you were gone- and he was there a-a-and" she sobs

He?

She must be thinking about the night when it all happened.

"Pippa what?" I ask

"It was a nightmare." She said still with her face in my chest

"Your ok, shh Im here. He's gone." I said hugging her tighter

"Don't ever leave me Lin please." She said looking up into my eyes

"I won't Pippa I will never ever ever leave, I love you. Let's get to bed your so tired I can see it in your eyes." I said

We lay down and Pippa puts her head on my chest and we fall into a deep sleep.
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I wake up to the sun lighting up the whole room, I gently push Pippa over so I could get up.

I check my phone and it's mostly messages from family asking when it would be ok to visit. I give them a date to fly in.

I crack the window because it was so hot in the room, I turn around and Pips awake.

"Good Morning beautiful." I smile as she sits up

"Good Morning." She said grinning

"I'm gonna go change it's so hot in here what the hell." Pippa groans trying to get up

"Woah take it easy Pip, let me help you up." I insist helping her stand up

I hand her a thong and she gasps

"Lin Manuel Miranda! I am not going to walk around in a thong! Now give me my shorts!"

"Oops!" I said sarcastically and she playfully slaps me

She walks out in boy shorts, a grey Nike sweatshirt, and her hair in a messy ponytail.

"These barley fit." She sighs pulling up the shorts Pippa was already skinny before everything happened but she lost a ton of weight since.

"Your beautiful." I said

"You really think so? I mean I have all these ugly scars on my chest I lost so much weight I'm a mess." She sighs

"No, don't ever talk about yourself like that! Pip your so beautiful. I love you." I said and she runs and hugs me

"I love you so fucking much." She said with her head in my chest
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