fix his heart | lippa

chapter dix-sept

The room went silent all you could hear was my short breaths.

I look down at the floor

"Pippa, I'm so sorry." My dad says looking at my mom, she looks at me

"This is horrible, I'm sorry, but how?"

"He.. killed him self."

My mom gasps and my dad holds her.

"Oh god!"

"Hun that's awful why?"

"He said he was depres-" I couldn't even get the sentence out without crying

"Depressed?"

"How did you not know Phillipa!" My mother yells I just stare at her in complete and utter shock

"W-what?"

"You didn't know he was depressed?"

"No! How was I supposed to know!!"

"Sheila I think-" my dad starts

"No! She should have know!"

"Don't you think I feel awful enough!"

"No! I don't you think you do?!"

"You know it's all your fault!"

"What the fuck!"

"Guys-"

"Phillipa Soo, you didn't know your own boyfriend was depressed after all this! All you put him through and you just let him kill him self?"

"Mom what the actual fuck! I'm sorry I wasn't exactly planning on almost dying 500 times! I feel absolutely shitty my boyfriend just died!"

"Your just- I cant believe you."

"Mom!" Hudson yells

I scoff and run out the door

I hear Hudson yelling at my parents and coming after me.

"I don't know what's up with them, I've never seen her-"

"I don't know either but I never wanna see her again." I sob

He sighs and tugs on my hand

"Let's go out.."

I stare at him

"Can we just go back to your house?"

"No.."

"Hudson..."

"Cmon get in the car you'll see."

I shrug my shoulders and follow him

Within 20 minutes we reached one of favorite spots to sit and hang out when we were little. It was just outside of the city and had plenty of rocks and a river. Hudson and I would sit here for hours whenever we were stressed or just bored.

"Woah.. so many memories." I gasp

"Remember all the pictures we would take out here trying to be cool...."

I giggle at the thought of Hudson and I actually thinking we were cool when we were teens.

"....Yeah those were the days, where all we had to worry about was homework."

Hudson sighs

"Yeah.."

We just sit and stare out into the river for a solid ten minutes, sitting in a comfortable silence.

"Hudson?"

"Mhm.."

"I don't ever want to see mom again.."