Just this once

Chapter twentyone

Erika's POV

"Now now Erika, as much as I would like to give you my dick, but you made me promise I wouldn't try anything or you would castrate me so that would be a problem..."

'Oh my gods.' This earns him a bitch slap across the face, and let me tell you now I hit like a man so it hurts like the bitch I am. He staggers back clutching his cheek and laughing while bracing for my next strike.

I step forward menacingly and find my eyes wandering to his plump lips.

'Can I...?'

'He's so...'

'I just wanna...' It only takes twenty seconds of dumb ass courage to make a decision.

'Fuck it all.' I take another quick step forward and grab his collar, our mouths colliding. I am on my tip toes to reach him but I don't mind. I actually enjoy being short.

His arms wrap around my waist and for the first time in forever I feel safe, I feel secure, I feel almost loved.

That thought is what snaps me back to reality.

Because how could anyone ever love me? When I cannot even love myself. When my parents, the people who gave birth to me cannot.

The simple answer is, they can't.

I pull back abruptly and before he can stop me I am out the door.

Thank god I kept my phone in my pocket. How the hell did I fall asleep last night without music? I was do tired, and caught up in his warm arms- FUCK! I can't stop thinking of him!!!!

'Pull yourself together Erika! He's not interested!'

As I walk there is one fact that refuses to leave my mind,

He kissed back.

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I had sprinted till his house was no longer in sight, only them did I slow to a fast walk. Without having any idea of where I was walking to I just had to keep moving and try to outrun the demons.

'Hah, that's always worked out sooo well for you!'

I'm trying

'How long have you been clean Erika?'

.........

'Oh,that's right, you aren't! Because you're weak. You're weak. Just give up already.'

I'm trying to stay strong.

'You need the blade.'

I do

'Why are you still here?'

I...don't... know.

I finally realize where I was walking to.

The highway bridge.

'Why am I still here?'

My feet are at the edge of the bridge, just above the roaring water.

I shouldn't be.

Authors note:

CLIFF HANGER! BOOM! THAT JUST HAPPENED BITCHEZZZZ!!!!

Hahaha JK I love you all so much!

And yes, of course I know you are sharpening your butterknives (*cough cough Caylie *cough cough Julie *cough cough Julez)

STILL LOVE YOU!

And this is NOTT the end! So don't ask lol, nothing's going to happen if you ask but just don't because this isn't okay?

Okay. (Hahah TFIOS moment!)

Sorry if I'm rambling it's 2:50 in the morning and I'm WIDE AWAKE! (Which means updates for you, you lucky lot!)

I HAVE VERY EXCITING NEWS! NEXT CHAPTER WE FINALLY FIND OUT WHAT HAPPENED THAT SPECIAL NIGHT!!!!

HUZZAH!!!!

Spoiler as requested:

There will be a new main character in the sequel to Just This Once, I do not yet know the title, but even if I did I wouldn't tell you because it may contain a MAJOR spoiler so yeah, not happening.

And for all of you single ladies out there soon there shall be some smexy guys ;)

Oh and sorry for the short chappy, I shall make up for it I promise! I think I may break the usual pattern to have back to back Erika's POV!!!! Yay super excited for this!!!!

Hahaha done rambling that's it for now, keep your eyes out I'm going to stay up and write more :D so talk to y'all laterrrrrr

Wishing you all Sexy single guys

~Em