I hate being lost inside my head.
I do it constantly
I'm always dwelling on my problems
Thinking of the past
The future
But never the present
I'm so caught up fantasizing about the future
I forget to live in the now
And I hate that
But I can't stop it
I can't help but wonder what I'm gonna be like in 6 months
A year
2 years
5 years
A decade from now
I have dreams
I have goals
And it scares me that as I think of them
I have doubts that I believe
Saying I can't reach any of them
And I don't know maybe this seems random
And slightly dumb
But sometimes I feel like being brain dead
Would be better than this constant loop
Of having dreams and desires
But not reaching them
And all of this scares me so much
Cuz I don't know what the future will bring
So I wind up just thinking more
And more
And more
Until I'm lost inside my head
And then I fall asleep
And then the next day comes
And it all starts over again.
It's a constant loop
And I can't escape it.
YOU ARE READING
In the feels
De TodoI've tried writing in journals but I suck at sticking to them. So now imma just type my feelings out on this. Read it if you want, I don't really care.
