In the feels

May 12, 2018

So it's 2:23 am.
I'm up late...again.
This time it's not cuz I'm sad or anything.
It's more of a health issue keeping me up.
And I guess all the thinking I'm doing isn't helping.
Anyways,
So I haven't been doing too good.
No one really knows this but for the past 4 days have been kinda crappy.
My body is being weird,
I don't know what's wrong with me.
Every little thing aches
I'm physically exhausted.
Like all energy and strength is just drained from me.
I can't get warm.
I've been bundled up in hoodies and blankets for the past couple days.
And I'm taking 3-5 hot showers a day just to try to get even a little bit warm.
And I'm having the worst pains ever in my lower gut.
Almost like period cramps,
But I know they aren't.
And I don't know maybe I'm just overreacting,
But it sucks.
When my mom went to make me a doctors appointment,
They originally said they could fit me in on June 12.
Except,
When my mom told them my symptoms,
They said I needed to be looked at sooner.
So I now I go to the doctors in about a week.
And I just hope I get better.
Cuz I don't like feeling this drained.
I feel weak.
Tired.
And I feel like people think I'm over exaggerating.
Maybe I am.
I just know that I'm physically not doing well.
And I hate it so much.