It's 2:30 am
And I can't seem to sleep.
My minds running wild again,
Tell me things
That I'm starting to believe.
I'm not pretty
I'm not worthy of anything.
I don't deserve the friends I have.
I don't deserve all the things I've been given.
I honestly feel like I'm just wasting away,
I feel like I hold no importance.
And it sucks.
Honestly my main thought tonight.
Is how lonely I am.
This sounds really bad.
But I miss having someone to love,
I doubt anyone will view as a potential girlfriend anymore
I mean I'm not worth it.
Why have me when a guy can have a beautiful, stronger, funnier girl.
I'm not worth it.
Another thought is how messed up I've really become.
I mean just look at me.
I'm always so sad.
I'm treated like a fucking charity case,
Like a fragile piece of glass that can break at any minute.
I don't sleep enough.
Which you can obviously tell by the fact that's it's the middle of the night and I'm up typing this out.
I don't eat that much anymore.
I just seem to have no appetite.
And I hate it.
I hate it so much.
I just want things to change.
I don't want my people to look at me and be in my life cuz they wanna fix me.
I want people to be in my life cuz I'm fun to be around.
But I'm not fun when I'm like this
And I'm like this all the time.
So to everyone reading this that knows me personally.
I just wanna say I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for the person I've become,
And I'm sorry for the way that I am.
YOU ARE READING
In the feels
De TodoI've tried writing in journals but I suck at sticking to them. So now imma just type my feelings out on this. Read it if you want, I don't really care.
