Love And Pain - Calibri X Suicidal! Abused! Reader

Part 9 - How Could I?

Calibri's POV:

Lee kissed me. I melted into the kiss and placed my hands onto her hips. It felt... wrong. 'I don't even like this girl!' I thought to myself. After a while of kissing, I noticed that it was becoming more of a makeout session. No, it PASSED kissing and almost passed making out. I noticed that Lee was slowly pulling my sweater off and I pushed her off of me. "Okay, you said 'kiss', not 'bang'." I said.

I felt AWFUL. I almost felt like puking... at myself! 'How could I get so reckless?! Y/N doesn't deserve any of this!' I reminded myself. "Lee, do not tell ANYONE. Also, we aren't dating. Just know that. I am still with Y/N, and I honestly don't even like you. I'm sorry, but no. Not again will we touch 'lips'. No, we aren't going to touch eachother PERIOD. I can't believe I'm..." I stopped myself and ran off.

I made a bunch of weird turns to make sure that Lee didn't follow me. Once I heard her pass by me and head home, I cried. 'I can't believe I almost did something horrible... I DID do something horrible...' I thought to myself. I started to get stressed about how Y/N was doing and if Y/N was awake yet. I wiped my tears away and put my hand in my sweater pocket. I pulled out a box of cigarettes and a lighter. I put the cigarette in my mouth and lit it. 'I'm a horrible person. I need to be more careful. Y/N matters a LOT more than Lee.' I thought to myself about Y/N as I smoked, all alone.

Lee's POV:

'Hah! Keep it a secret. He thinks he's SOOOO smart, but I'll tell Y/N when I need to. For now, how to get him to do it again. He's very strong and obviously is drooling over Y/N all the time. Psh, Y/N.' I thought to myself. I started creating a strategy on how to get Y/N on my side and make Calibri miserable, and also end up being with Calibri in the end.

'Odd plan, but I'll fix it later. Oh, and oh dear Asgore. I was obviously the one that killed him. Nobody suspects the hot jerk to be the killer, am I right? Plus, everyone in the house other than Y/N loves me. Hmm. I'll try to get Calibri to cheat in the best way I know. Blackmail. Everything is falling into place, and nobody can stop me.' I thought to myself. I smiled and let out a cute giggle. "This will be fun." I whispered to myself.

Your POV:

You heard the door open downstairs. Judging from how many, "Hi Lee!" noises came from downstairs, you guessed that Lee was back. You heard a bit of footsteps and soon Lee had entered the room. Lee sat down on her mattress and noticed your tear-stained face. "What happened to you?" She asked. "Life." You replied, making her laugh. 'She's being... friendly?!'

"Well... the reason I came in here was to apologize. I... left you out A LOT and ignored you A LOT... I feel awful for it. So... can we please... can we please be friends?" Lee requested and held her hand out. 'Don't you dare.' You told yourself in your head, but it was too late. You were already shaking her hand. "So... what were you and Calibri doing?" You questioned, skeptical of this could-be boyfriend stealer. "We went out to get you a donut!" Lee said and handed you a bag. You smiled slightly and opened the bag. A donut covered in a sugary powder.

"Aww... thank you. I thought you guys were doing the down n' dirty somewhere." You admitted and laughed. Lee laughed with you. "No way! He's YOUR boyfriend!" Lee replied. You ate the donut and you talked with Lee for the rest of the day. You soon got drowzy and Lee left the room.

Nobody's POV:

Lee went up to Calibri. "I have to tell you something outside." Lee said and scratched the back of her neck. She lead Calibri outside and smiled. "You have to do whatever I say, or else I'll tell Y/N what we did together." Lee instructed. Calibri gulped and nodded. "We're going to sleep at the inn together for tonight. I have enough gold for the both of us to get a room together." Lee continued. "So... you're going to rape me or something?" Calibri asked and backed away a bit.

"No! No, not that! Geeze..." Lee said and opened the house door. "Calibri is going to show me around here for a few hours. We'll be back soon!" Lee said. After a bunch of replies and responses, Lee walked away from the house with Calibri. They soon got to the inn and Lee got the both of them a very big and expensive room to stay in. There was only one bed. "You seriously better not rape me." Calibri grumbled and sat on the bed. "Y/N will always be the only one that's allowed to even take my sweater off other than myself." Calibri said and blushed.

'Y/N...' His heart hurt when he thought about him/her/them. Lee sat next to Calibri, unsatisfied. "Kiss me. Do it, or I'll tell on you. And don't pull away unless your sweater comes close to being off." Lee said. She puckered her lips out and closed her eyes. Calibri sighed and kissed her like she wanted. Calibri wasn't having fun, and he didn't even want this! Lee seperated their lips. "Kiss back already. Let loose, will you?" Lee said with a lot of attitude.

Lee kissed Calibri and he kissed back like she wanted. They kissed for a few minutes before Lee pulled away. "Okay. Now, one second-to-last thing. Say that you love me~." Lee said. "What?!" Calibri screeched. Calibri rejected quickly. "C'moooooon~." Lee cooed. Then he tucked himself under the blanket. "Goodnight... creep." He muttered in annoyance and fell asleep. Lee scoffed at Calibri's behavior. She went into the bed right next to Calibri and laid down. "Don't worry... you'll say it someday." Lee whispered and combed her fingers through his ponytail.

Your POV:

You don't know if you should trust Lee or not. 'She seemed sincere and nice... I guess...' You thought to yourself. Something told you that she wasn't a person you could trust. You left to go outside from the window again. You stepped away from the house. You saw some monsters outside. Because it was becoming closer and closer to being midnight, you kept your eyes out for stalkers, creeps and drunks. You went to Muffet's and took a shot of beer.

"Uhm... are you old enough to drink?" Some monster sitting next to you asked. "Yeah! I'm not breaking any laws right now." You lied and laughed. 'Actually... heheh.....' You took about three more shots before just ordering a whole bottle. 'Man.... these drinks are really helpful.... I feel better already!' You thought to yourself. You paid and left the store with two bottles of beer.

- - Time - Skip - -

Nobody's POV:

Lee stayed at the inn and allowed Calibri to leave and go home. She was getting annoyed with Calibri's constant rejecting. Calibri entered the house. "Where's Lee?" "Is she okay?" Everyone started asking him about Lee. "She's not hurt, she's just staying at the inn. What's up with you guys anyways? Whenever she's here... you guys act all nice to her and everything! Calm down, she's just a normal person!" Calibri ranted and went upstairs. He heard your voice and slowly opened the door. "Y/N? Are you-" Calibri stopped.

Calibri's POV:

Y/N... is drunk?! Y/N took a drink from one of her/his/their beer bottles and looked up at me. "Hiiii Callllllibri! Finally got back f-f-from gettin' down n' d-dirty with Leeeeeeee?" Y/N said in a sarcastic tone of voice. "Wha-" I was interrupted. "Y-y-youuuuu filthy ch-chea- *hiccup* -cheater. Welllllllll I'll h-have you-you know that I f-frankly don't caaaaaaaaare." Y/N said. She/He/They wiped a tear from her/his/their eyes with a sleeve, and the sleeve slightly got pulled up. I saw a cut on it that looked fresh. My eyes widened and I went closer to Y/N. "Did you..." I whispered and pulled her/his/their sleeve up.

Y/N allowed this. I looked at the cut. It was long, but not deep. "Yeah, I-I d- *hiccup* -did and thaaaaat's because I was reallyyyyyyyyy stressed. The kniiife is-is in my backpack aaaaand it's helpfullllll." She/He/They slurred. I turned to see Y/N's backpack behind me on the ground. I opened it to find a blood-covered rag and a sharp knife. I teared up. "How could y-you.... do this to yourself?" I asked, not even turning to look at Y/N. "How could- how could you cheat onnnnnn me? You- *hiccup* -sellout!" Y/N replied, venom spilling from her tongue. I pulled Y/N's sleeve back down and hugged her close to me. "Please... don't do these things to yourself..." I murmured.

"Please..."  

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'I feel awful.'