When i got home i started to cry and think to myself what the hell have i done i was so lost in my thoughts that i didn't hear the door i got up and answered it i was surprised that it was amber
she didn't even say anything she just kissed me i don't know why but i kissed back one thing led to another and let's just say i made the biggest mistake
i woke up next morning to see her gone i start to get angry with myself first i lose the love of my life then i best up some dude that she's friends with and finally i slept with her x best friend
i hate myself and i know if i tell anyone about this they'll kick my ass i was afraid to say something but i knew i had to attest tell sawyer
i called him and ask him if i can come over he said yes so i got ready while getting ready i noticed how red my eyes were and even worst i had hickeys all over my body and they were from amber
i got to sawyers and when i came in not even langie could look at me i explained everything that had happen i could tell that he didn't wanna look at me but he did what and said
"im disappointed in you bro for starters you didn't trust her secondly you slept with one of her friends" so your on her side" "not on anyone's side im just simply telling you what my opinion"
"i gots to go man i love you dude" "i love you to man" i went over to the hotel she was staying at she wasn't there but amber was i didn't wanna see her as creepy as this sounds i had lydia's location on so i followed it when i got there i
saw her watching tv with nick i saw that it was her favorite show i started to tear up but i knew i had to talk to her i knocked on the door and she answered it she yelled that she'll be outside so nick can hear her he did and said okay
"what do you want adym" "i came here to apologize please just hear me out" i saw tears foaming in her eyes i tried to wipe it off but she pushed my hands off she won't even let me near her i
hate myself for what im about to say but i have to tell her "lydia last night me and amber had sex and she gave me hickeys all over my body" i said crying lydia started to cry what she said next killed me
"i hate you adym yorba never come near me" she went inside and slammed the door in my face i deserved it i walked home all alone crying when i got home i saw our dogs i slightly smiled but it soon faded away when i noticed all the pictures of me and lydia
there were all over the house i went in my room and looked closer at it i never noticed how much pictures me and lydia had i laid down and went to sleep that all i need at the moment
