I blinked quickly, not believing what Niall had just told me. He repeated it again so I knew this was actually happening. He sat down and put his hands in his head as he looked down. I sat down next to him and rubbed his back. He looked up at me with tears in his eyes. I knew just by looking at him that he was hurting.
“Is she going to keep it?” I asked him.
“I don’t know, she seemed really excited about it.”
This was probably the worst thing that could have happened. Looking at Niall I could tell that Niall had meant all of those things he told me. I knew him, and I knew he was going to be a stand up guy and take care of Becky and his unborn child. This couldn’t have happened at a worse time. As upset as I was, I could only imagine how upset Niall was. Maybe this was for the best. I was still with Nick, and Nick was a great guy who loved me, and I know I could be happy with him.
“I still want to be with you Amanda.” He told me.
I wiped away one of his tears, “Niall, we can’t be together. This is a sign”
“I can’t believe I screwed this up.”
“It’s not your fault, it’s life, and we have to deal with it as it comes at us. You’re going to stay with Becky, and you’re gonna be a great father because that’s the kind of guy you are. As for me, I’m going to go back to New York and be with Nick. We were being foolish thinking this could work out. I will always have a special place in my heart for you, you know that. Maybe we had our shot and it just didn’t work out.”
Niall was about to say something when we were interrupted by Becky who had been looking for Niall. “There you guys are.” She said as she walked out. She saw that Niall was upset and rushed over to him. She rubbed his back and asked him what was wrong. I felt awkward being there so I got up to go back inside. I looked back at them before I entered the hall and I saw her hugging him. I couldn’t imagine how scared Becky was. A baby was a huge responsibility and I wasn’t sure if either of them were ready for something like that. As I looked back I saw Niall staring at me as he was hugging Becky. There was no doubt in my mind that he cared about Becky, it was all over his face. They had been together for five months, there was no way he didn’t. There was one thing I could read in his eyes and that was regret.
I joined the others at the table. Steph asked me where I had gone. I told her I went to go take a walk with Niall. I assured her everything was fine. To be honest, I was kind of excited for Niall. I knew he would make a great dad. I was just disappointed that I couldn’t be the one to give him his first child.
Niall and Becky walked back into the reception hall. They announced to everyone that they were going to have a baby. The guys all got up and congratulated except for Harry who looked over at me. I really tried not to cry, it was taking everything that I had in me to hold in those tears. I exhaled quickly looking at Niall who had a smile on his face as he hugged Zayn. Harry texted me from the other side of the table asking me if I was okay. I looked up at him and nodded. I wasn’t ok, but I have to put on a happy face. For Niall and Becky, this was a happy day. When we were together Niall had always told me that he couldn’t wait to be a father when he was older. Harry then got up and offered his congratulations to Niall and Becky.
“You’re gonna name him Harry right?” Harry said.
Becky said, “Who said it was going to be a boy?”
“Okay, I’ll settle for Harrietta.” He joked.
The rest of the night, I came to terms that Niall and I weren’t going to get back together. It had been a nice thought for second that it lasted. I came to realize that this was for the best. I was with Nick, and Niall was with Becky. We spent the rest of the night having a great times like old times. We took a lot of pictures together. There was a really great shot of Niall and I that I wanted a copy of. Niall and I briefly talked on the dance floor and decided we would remain friends, no matter how much my heart hurt seeing him with someone else. I made my way back to the hotel around 3 am. I opened the door to see Nick waiting for me in the room. He had come to surprise me. He had lit up candles all over the place and had bought lilies and placed them all over the hotel room. I looked in the bathroom and he had drawn us a bubble bath. I screamed out of excitement when I saw him and ran into his arms.
“I can’t believe you’re here!” I said. I jumped into his arms and he kissed me. As he held me in his arms I knew this is where I belonged. There was no other person in this picture it was just he and I. He was committed to me, and I could see myself with a guy like him. As he placed me down I looked around at what he had done. I was mind-blown that he had gone through all of this trouble for me and I couldn’t believe it. He kissed me as he led me to the bathroom. He unzipped my dress and threw it on the floor. My phone started to ring. He stopped kissing me, “You should probably get that.” He told me.
“No!” I said and kissed him again, “I’m busy.”
“It could be important.” He told me.
“What could be more important that you and I?” I asked him and ripped off his shirt. He kissed my neck forcefully and took off his shirt. He joined me in the bathtub. I splashed him from the other side of the bathtub. He then pulled me in and held me in his arms. I was so peaceful. I had no worries. This is where I belonged.
We then got out of the bath and headed for the bedroom. I asked him if he had a condom. He shook his head no.
“Really babe?” I asked him, “What did you think was going to happen after you prepared something this romantic.”
“I had my mind on other things I guess, I just forgot. I’m gonna go pick some up. I’ll be back in a flash” He said as he left the hotel room in his hoodie and sweatpants. I wrapped myself up in the sheets. I looked over at my phone again. I had ten unheard voicemails from an unknown caller. I listened to the voicemail. “AMANDA!” I heard Niall screamed. I could tell he had drank more than he had been at the reception, “I LOVE YOU.” The message ended. I listened to the next one. “I LOVE YOU, AND I WANT TO BE WITH YOU. WE CAN WORK THROUGH THS.” I couldn’t listen to anymore of this. He had just been telling me all of these things because he was drunk. It was the alcohol that was talking. I decided to not listen to the rest of the messages and deleted them. I couldn’t think about that right now. Hearing him saying those things brought tears to my eyes. Nick was going to be back soon. I heard a knock on the door and figured Nick had forgotten his key. So I ran over to the door in the sheet. I opened the door “Wow, that was that quick” I said expecting to see Nick. To my surprise, it wasn’t Nick. It was Niall.
