It's barely 6am in the morning, but i can hear my mom singing so loud,
I'm sick of it, if you ever tell her she sings badly you'd be asking for a world war.
I tug at the pillow beside me and shield my ears , I can still hear her singing, now her voice seems louder,
Sometimes I feel like she does this on purpose to get me out of bed,
"Damnit!" I angrily jump from my bed, i move over to my closet and pull out my thickest sweatshirt and a matching sweat pant I got them on my visit France early this year, they've been my favorite ever since, I pick up my Snickers and put them on , and head out.
Jogging all around my neighborhood by 5:54am , I jog through familiar streets , I could remember them from my childhood, I spent half of my life in this neighborhood, I see a lot of changes,
As i jog i remember the very night my father left us 20years ago, he said he had gotten a job in newyork, and he would come back for us immediately he finalised his appointment,
That was the last day we saw him , 5years later I got accepted into the university,
I was in school in Chicago, when rumor spreads that he had remarried.
It was the most painful phase of my mother's life
Each time she visited me in school she always seemed broken,
I had begged to take a loan from one of the places I work so I could moved them down to Chicago close to me
But Mom refused.
The news about my dad
Had crushed every form of happiness she had
As years passed my hatred towards him has grew so strong.
I exhale ,
The sun had already risen
I take a look at my watch
its 8am! , I can't believe I've been jogging for the past 2hrs ,
I take a turn and head back home, ten blocks away from home,
I spot a tall blonde girl jogging my way, her gaze seems to be traced on me,
She'll pass for "pretty" she's not really my type, as she jogs her huge tits seem to be jogging too,
I would love to play with them
It's a good thing thoughts can't be read, if mine were to be read out loud , it would have you covering your face in embarrassment on my behalf,
I think this holiday wouldn't be so bad, right now i've got to put my charms to work, im a few blocks close to her,
well for the record,
in my entire life I've never had to put much effort into getting attention , all I do is smile at them and the next moment they are all over me, drooling,
she's few steps away from me now ,
I'd have to act like I didn't see her ,
I look up to see her smiling at me, well it looks like everything just got easy!
In return I pass a quick smile but it fades quickly enough for her to notice, i knowingly walk past her like I don't care,
"Uhm hello excuse me" I hear her say behind me
I hide my smileof victory,
as I slowly turn to face her
"Yeah? " I say in the most casual manner
"I haven't seen you around the neighborhood before" she says licking her lip as if to moisten it
I know its an act of seduction, and I'm willing to play along
"Yeah I just came for the Christmas holiday , my family lives here" I reply seeming uninterested
"Wow, how nice , uhm there's a party tonight at Zakikam club , it's at sim..."
"Simpson avenue" I cut her short,
I grew up in this damn neighborhood
"Oh , so I take it that you would you be there? " she asks
"I'll try " I reply , her face towel drops to the floor, she bends to pick it revealing a huge amount of her cleavage to me, I can tell its all a show of , she slowly stands up , too quickly for me to hide my gaze,
She catches my eyes , a seductive smile forms on her lips
"Please come, I'd love to see you there" she says "we could get to know each other yunno" she adds
" I'll try" I say and quickly walk away before she can get the chance to say something else.
I'm running home right now, I'm late for breakfast and I know my mom would definitely fuss about it.
I finally arrive at my destination, I head inside, straight for the shower,
As the warm water cascades down my body, relaxing every nerve in my system, my mind is cast to marriage,
in as much as I have dreaded the idea for so long, despite my mother's continues tantrums, I think I should give it more thought,
but I don't believe in a happy ending, all marriages are bound to end up in pain,
I witnessed that of my parents
I change my mind, I don't think I ever want to get married,
Besides,
Being married to the same woman for the rest of my life is definitely not something I think I can do,
I can't stick to one woman, it sounds really boring .
There'd be no more parties, no more tons of sweet girls at my call? Nah! I can't
I don't think its possible to find someone capable of making
Marriage worth it.
End of discussion
"I AM NOT EVER GETTING MARRIED!" I blurt out too loud before I can stop my self, if my mom could hear me, she would scream at my statement
I quickly hop out of the bathroom put on a short and a base ball singlet and I make my way to the dining room for breakfast.
How many of you feel confused about marriage like youth?
I mean does the thought of getting married send chills down your spine?
