Susan's POV
Its been almost two decades since I saw my mother ,
Seeing her standing before me was like a dream and a night mare,
She had left just a day to my sixth birthday
I had hoped that she'd would at least come home for my birthday
I waited expectantly at the door, earnestly hoping that she would come,
My father tried to convince me to enjoy my party , saying my mom was held up in traffic
But I could tell he was lying ,
His eyes had darted away from me and his fingers trembled ,
That's how he had always reacted whenever he told a lie .
Years passed, I kept waiting, I would often daydream of her return and all the interesting things we'd do together
I'd see other mom's coming to pick their children from school
and it made me wish mom would be home waiting for me.
After my mom left, dad threw himself into work , he barely had time for me, whenever he finally had time for me , he would take me shopping , we would see a movie together , but those moments were so rare
I was so bad at cooking , emphasizing her absence
My dad was a good cook but he barely had time to cook nor to teach me to cook.
One the day I felt sharp pains in my stomach,
dad had left early for work, I walked to a pharmacy in other to get advil or anything to make the pain go away,
on my way to the pharmacy I met our pastor's wife mrs edna, at the parking lot which was very close to the pharmacy , she had probably driven down there to get some medicines too,
"suzzie dear how are you" she asked , she preferred to call me by my nick
"I'm fine Mrs Edna " I replied, just then my knitting wool rolled off , I ran after it , and I got it
"Oh no dear, your dressed is stained" she had said.
"Stained? "I asked her, "oh I probably sat on a dirty sit or something" I said , I was so unaware of what she was talking about
" no dear, come in here for a moment, get into the car, I need to tell you something " she had said sweetly.
I wondered what was such a big deal about being stained, I would just had have to do some early laundry when I got home, I had thought,
I entered her car closing the door behind ,
"Are you feeling pains in your stomach?" She had asked, I was surprised, how did she know I felt pains in my stomach, oh she's a pastor's wife so she had probably seen a spiritual vision or something I thought .
"Yes ma'am , I was on my way to the pharmacy to get some advil or other pain relief" I replied
"How old are you?" She asked gently
"10, I would be 11 by September, three months away," I replied proudly
"Wonderful! Suzzie dear you have just started experiencing your menstrual cycle, have you ever heard of a menstrual cycle?" She asked,
Of course I had heard of it but It never occurred to me that it could also happen to me
I had thought it would come when I become an adult and get married ,
" yes ma'am" I replied
"Honey yours has just begun, that explains the blood stains on your dress" she said,
Blood? I had no idea blood stains were on my dress , I had thought .
The thought of blood flowing out of my body scared the hell out of me, I was terrified, I broke down and cried,
"Oh honey, don't cry, you don't need to cry, it's a beautiful thing , it's a sign that you are no longer a baby but a strong grown girl, it's a sign of fertility as a woman" she explained,
Mrs Edna talked on, she explained so many things to me which I had no knowledge about, she made me wait in the car while she went in to get me sanitary pads and pain relief
She dropped me of at my house, I thanked her a lot, I couldn't help but wish she would just become my mother, but that wasn't possible .
On the 17th of September 2008 ,
My 16th birthday I vowed to forget about my mother,
I had come to hate her
I never understood her reason for leaving ,
I had never seen her fight with dad
We were happy
At least that's what I thought.
I think her absence made me stronger, independent too
Here she is before me , someone whom would biologically be referred to as my mother
Why did she come now?
"Suzzie" she muttered,
I could see her trembling, filled with uncertainty of what to say to me,
In a different circumstance I would feel sorry for her
But right now all I feel is disgust, and anger
She looks so haggard,aged and pale
I wonder what she had been doing through this years,
It's like I cared anyway
My mother which I never had.
(Hey guys, ,
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** I hope you guys are okay with me bringing Susan's mom into the picture? Its been all youth, youth , youth, so I thought I would be okay to change the direction of the spot light**""
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