Not a saviour [destiel]

chapter 8

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DeanDeanDeanDeanDeanDeanDean. That's the only thing on Castiels mind lately and he just wanted it to stop. He missed dean. He wanted Dean. He needed Dean. Yet he could never have him. 

Sighing Cas flopped down on the creaky bed that smelled like cats. Castiel always wanted a cat but he was never able to get one because Dean always said no. He could get one now but he felt as though he would be going against his word that he gave Dean. He couldn't do that to Dean. even in death.

Sam had gone out on a walk to get some air and food and that left Cas all alone in the stinky hotel room. He knew about now Dean would have some kind of porn on and have the magic fingers going. But he wasn't Dean. And Dean wasn't here. 

Cas could just imagine Dean laying in the bed that was next to the bed was sitting on. Smiling as he closed his eyes in peace as the bed vibrated. Saying something to tease Cas about how he was jealous. Castiel smiled sadly at the empty bed. He never fully realized how much he missed Dean.

This feeling hit Castiel like a ton of bricks hitting him at full speed. It was so sudden he couldn't breath. He couldn't think. Everything seemed to go in slow motion and before he knew it, he was crumpled on the floor in a ball of sobs and tears. He had lost Dean. He was gone. He was never coming back. All Cas could hear was this fuzzy noise. His sobs and wheezing filled the room. He couldn't control himself. He couldn't breath. He just wanted it all to stop. 

He was on a ball, hiding his face in his arms. His sobs shacking his muscular frame. He just couldn't take it any more.

Castiel felt something cold touch his arm. Castiel didn't look up to see what it was or is it was just a draft. The cold continued to stay on one spot of Castiels arm and he began to shiver. The coldness on his arm disappeared when he shivered. He got himself to look up through this pain to see a blurry figure through his tears. A voice seemed to cut through the fuzziness. 

"Cas."

Who was this person. Cas tried to blink away the tears only to see the most beautiful face. The chizzled features. The most beautiful green eyes that were full of sadness. The tousled hair that was swept up in a perfect motion. 

Dean

He couldn't believe it. It was him. How was this possible. It couldn't be.

Cas started to blindly reach out for dean since more tears seemed to fall down Castiel's face, making art on his cheeks with the stains of his tears.

Dean smiled sadly down at him before he started to fade away into thin air. Into the nothing he had been before. 

"NOOO!" Castiel screamed. He had just got him back. Don't take him away!

His sobs seemed to worsen as the world seemed to start to fade away from Cas. This pain he felt inside him. This sadness. It was so much worse then he thought it ever could be. So much more worse. 

He continued to sob as his world turned into darkness. He wasn't sure if he imagened dean or if it was some one playing a sick joke on him. BUt it still broke him even farther. Broke him till his heart and sould were just splinters scattered all across the floor. A mess that not even Dean would be able to pick up because cas was gone and he wasn't coming back.

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