My Heart is All Yours

18)Care without breaking

A little chapter of only including our basheer whom we were going to forget if I hadn't posted the previous chapter.How can you forget basheer though? You know he's one of the main characters (says/writes the one who didn't include basheer in any of the chapter when aastha started narrating her life......Such an evil I'm.Always blaming others for my naughty mistakes)

"The prophet (sallAllahu alaihiwasallam) wouldn't tell people off for how bad they were but instead would teach them how to be better"-sh.Omar sulaiman.

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BASHEER:-

After hearing aastha is married,i was out of place,physically and mentally.I was very shocked,It felt as suddenly something pricked inside my heart.So it was difficult to stay there when i couldn't even think properly.I told them lies to step out from there as soon as possible.

Only now i think there's air on the earth.The room was completely out of air.So i decided to come here,on the beach where i can get every kind of peacefulness,and an appropriate atmosphere to think. It's one of my favorite places in Mumbai.

I didn't know how to react after hearing that truth.I didn't know what felt in my heart then.She was nothing for me,but a saviour or a helper.And having these intensified feelings will only make worse.

I was not happy to hear she's married,nor sad.I didn't see her as a sister,neither as a doctor.

Then what?Did you see her as your girlfriend or wife?

Definitely NO.

Then what happened to me that I'm behaving like this.I don't know that either.Maybe i just need time to comprehend this.

The awkward tension was slowly fading away,All thanks to hira.

Might be heard only few about her life but that was enough to understand her character and perspectives.I liked her,as a friend just like hira.And i also want to help her to overcome her barriers.She's a prude,i appreciate what she did.She's brave yet nice at the same time.

What i'm contemplating is how i couldn't think of this before.She is a woman.An adult who has the age of a common married woman or woman gonna marry soon.Maybe 5 or 6 yrs elder than me.

If she's a revert,who might be her husband?A Hindu or Muslim?

Have you forgotten?Didn't hira tell you she's related to aastha?

I concluded her husband is also a Muslim.It isn't enough to think about aastha and i'm thinking of her husband now.Why am i after her always?

I decided to let her go from my mind.Decided not to think about her too much.

Spending time alone,sitting at the edge of the beach where you can only see the beating of waves like white sheet, getting the coldish air,breathing the purest wind of the sea add an extra-special feeling making the heart relaxed and tension free.

Then seeing a girl walking through the sides of those transparent yet smoky sea is what i captured next.A girl having a beautiful face,her locks was flying through the smooth wind and she was tucking it to her ear again and again as each wind passes through her.Her face looking more paler,hand folded,inhaling the cold as actually enjoying the breathe.Then her eyes flickered to my direction once,and stayed at here for seconds longer than needed and quickly looked down,speeding up the walk at same time.

My gaze was following her every move.She was walking fast and reached at her bike.Then rode away.But i never ignored the glimpse of her eyes looking at me again before driving away.