𝐖𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑 {𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘦!}

F I F T E E N

Wonpil has been visiting, talking, singing by Dowoon's door for the past week. Maybe Dowoon was over him. Maybe Dowoon really hated him. Maybe, Dowoon was still crying. So many things ran through Wonpil's mind.

Wonpil leaned his head against the door again and sighed.

"It's been a rough week hm? Again, I'm sorry, for everything. I'm sorry for being so dumb and blind. I mess up all the time. I always hurt you. But, I love you and I mean that. I love everything about you. I love the way you get shy at times when I bring up things. I love how your ears get red when your shy. It's really cute. I love your smile. It makes my heart flutter. When you talk, I find a smile on my face. I just get all happy with just your presence alone. I really love you. I'm sorry I made you feel like I played you. That wasn't my intention at all whatsoever. It was never ever my intention to make you cry or hurt you. I'm just stupid and I make too many mistakes for my liking. Yesterday, I heard you...When you said, if I loved you, why did I ever hurt you? Why did I lie? I didn't. I would never lie to you. I meant everything I said. I just do things wrong....but that's never a good excuse. It's that I didn't think about anything. I'm sorry" he ran his hand through his hair and sighed.

"I sing for you, because, I'll express my feelings better...it helps.."

"You were the dream I dreamed
The breath I breathed
The world I saw, listened, felt and believed in has disappeared
What I can do to get back to you

I'll go back before it's too late
so will you open up a little for me?
Nights without you are too long
I hate promises that aren't really promises
Wake me up with your warm lips, just like always" Wonpil missed the younger. He wants him back, more then ever.

"I'll toss and turn
In between longing and misery
Because I don't belong anywhere

You were the dream I dreamed
The breath I breathed
The world I saw, listened, felt and believed in has disappeared
What I can do to get back to you

all the memories get far away
Contrary to what I want
I hope you're still standing there" 

"I miss you. I want to hold you and hug you and just tell you how much I really do love you. I don't know...but then again, I don't want you to cry because of me even more...I don't know....I don't want to leave you, but then again, would it be best for you?" Wonpil stared at the door for a minute. Memories on top of memories began to run through his head. He's cried a lot during the week, but it doesn't compare to what Dowoon's feeling.

"I think so....I'll leave...even though I love you. Just so you'll be better. I've hurt you a lot. So, I'll go." Wonpil got up and looked at the door for a while. His heart ached. He didn't want to let go again. Right when he was about to walk away, he felt two arms wrap around him. He heard crying and when he turned around he saw Dowoon holding onto him like he was never going to see Wonpil again. That was the course that was unfortunately going to be taken place.

"Dowoon—"

"I don't want you to go you fucking dumbass! I love you too! I never hated y-you!"

"I hurt you.."

"I know! I tried to hate you! I tried to forget you and move on, but I can't.." Wonpil looked at the boy and his heart broke for probably the hundredth time that week. Dowoon's were bloodshot red and puffy and his hair was disheveled.

"I've made you cry...look, I never wanted you to be like this. I never wanted you to be hurt. I never wanted to make you feel like you couldn't trust me. I love you and I swear, I mean it"

"I love you too Wonpil."