Normal is Boring

You didnt say goodbye

You didn't say goodbye
Why am I surprised?

I don't regret a single moment.
The only thing I wished was different...I wish I could have heard your voice one more time.

Now I have to go back to hiding in my poetry
Hiding in my captions hoping you see them. Which you won't.

I am 2,000 miles away and I have never felt that distance more than right now.
2,000 miles physically and emotionally.
You have built a wall that I keep trying to climb but I finally had to walk away. Because my hands were bleeding and my feet tired.

I tried so hard to make what we had healthy.
But it just ended with blackness. It ended with anger.
And that's just pointless. Because life is too short to ignore someone you love.
Life is too short to not try.

Something in my heart tells me that you are the one.
I don't know why.
We've both done some pretty shitty things to each other.
Everyone in my life tells me that I'll find someone else.
But I don't want to.
I just want you.
But I can't have you.

I will never have you again. Because my heart is ripped open.
And I have to sew it up again.

I've got so many people that say they are here for me but it's just all noise because the only thing that will make
Me feel better is to hear your voice.
So I'll be hurting for a while.
For a while.

You didn't say goodbye. I did.
I'm left behind like what we had was nothing.
Like we didn't spend 10 months together falling and falling.
I'm left behind with my chest bleeding because you can't do this anymore.

YOU can't do this anymore. Ha.

Isn't that something?