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ROSELLE JADE PENASO CERVANTES INTERNATIONAL SCHOOL

X-SANTAN

S.Y. 2014-2015

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BY: FUENTES, ABIGAIL MARIE P.

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JUNE 17

It rained really, really heavy today that roads become wet and muddy, that theres delay and dirt in going to school. I reached school with mud and dirt in my socks! They looked like black and white polka dots that I really, really hate!

Even though I have mud and dirt in my socks, I’m happy Justin have also mud and dirt in his socks, in his pants and in the sleeves of his polo. He change into our P.E. uniform before the first period in the morning but then Ma’am Annie did not allowed it so the whole period, he stood biting a pencil and balancing books in his head and arms.

I felt a little, JUST A LITTLE BIT of pity for Justin. Ma’am Annie did not even listen to his explanation. Why? Can’t she understand that its a rainy day and theres mud and dirt everywhere and it is impossible to have nothing on your clothes but Justin have it really bad that he has change? Even she has mud on her skirt.

But, it does not matter. Justin is my mortal enemy. I am not leaving the act whatever situation it is.

In the afternoon, Ma’am Annie was wearing another set of clothes.

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JUNE 18

There is a typhoon coming I hear from the news. The typhoon’s name is... I forget. My sister Arienne was saying the whole evening after we hear the news things like, “The end is coming! Repent on your sins!” And then hit my hand as I was about to scoop some more soup while Adrian is still getting some at the same time and then scream at me: “Where did your manners go?” I want to tell her my manners is in the kitchen. And then she continue on preaching about the Word of the Lord and then sometimes shifts into the world of Science and lecture something like: “Why are we experiencing these now? Because of men! Why do men have to burn plastics? They have a lot of other flammable and unharmful sources of coal.”

She’s saying “they” as if she is not one. Is she an alien?

“They don’t know that if you burn plastics, emit CFCs into the atmosphere, the ozone layer will be damaged and heat will be trapped. Global warming, that is. So why are they doing that???”

“It’s because they do not know, right?” I interrupted, just to try shut her up. “You just said it, silly.”

“Oh,” she said, rather amazed. “Right. Well, they ought to know.” And then she continued eating her fried chicken.

My Ate is actually smart, just not rational at times. You know what I mean? She sometimes acts like she just got out of a mental hospital. I would’ve recommended her to return some of these days.

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JUNE 19

Can one person be happy and sad at the same time? Because I am.

Justin and Clark never stopped fighting up to the point they hurt me. Although I am used to Justin always kicking, shouting and everything else that’s physically harmful, today, I cried. I don’t know why I did—no, I know that is because they hit me with a broomstick while I was cleaning the classroom but I’ve got worse pains so why should I cry for that? I cannot understand my tears. They just flow out unexpectedly.