Loving Him *complete*

Chapter 32

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Songs for this chapter:

° Wires - The Neighborhood

° Little White Lies - One Direction

2 Days later. . .

~ Sam's p.o.v

" La Douleur Exquise "

It was silent while Nina and Cat stared at me like I had just said something crazy, and to them I suppose I did. We were currently seated in our room, the girls watching television. It was a boring Tuesday afternoon, especially when we just got out of school a few minutes ago and the girls not wanting to do their homework. The T.V. became mute as Nina pressed the button on the remote.

They stayed staring at me until I told then the meaning of what i just said, and why I said it out of the blue.

" La Douleur Exquise. It means: ' the heart-wrenching pain of wanting the affection of someone attainable.' " I explained to them, yet there faces held a look of complete confusion. A sigh escaped my lips, turning my chair towards them, I tried to break it down for them.

" It means, Your heart hurting of so much pain because you want a certain someone to love you, but it being completely impossible." Their eyes stayed trained on me, before Cat asked me," And why did you bring this up all of a sudden?"

I shrugged not really having a particular reason to why I did, or maybe because I didn't want to tell them about what happened with Harry 2 nights ago at Noah's house. Harry has been in my head lately, but I don't why. That night, he didn't seem like himself; He was an absolute mess. Yet, there's something that keeps nagging me.

Why did Harry come back to the house in the first place?

" -leaving, I'm going to Zayns. " I wasn't able to hear the first part of what cat said, but I just waved to her like I did. Nina was still on her bed, her head phones around her neck, as always, while she continued to stare at me. I thought if I looked away she would too, but she didn't and I began to grow uncomfortable.

" Can you not?" I asked smiling.

" Can I not what?" she asked playfully.

I rolled my eyes and turned towards my desk so I could focus back on my math homework. Scanning over the page I noticed I was already done, and I had no other homework left to do. I filed the paper in the math section of my binder, then carefully closed it. As I was putting my binder in my bag for school, I could feel Nina's eyes on me still. I've lived with Nina for what? 2 and a half months, yet she still scares me.

" I'm staring at you because you didn't answer Cats question before she left. You just shrugged." she spoke, " That could mean anything." her voice was in a whisper when she said the last sentence.  Her breathe tickled my neck while she breathed steadily behind me. I shivered because of the contact and because I was scared at how fast she came behind me without making any sort of noise.

So instead of telling her a lie, I told her the half truth. " I didn't have anything to say." my voice was shaky and I hoped to dear god that she didn't catch that.

" Your voice shaked. Spill. Now." she swung my chair around and I fell out of my seat. She laughed at me before she helped me up. " I'm sorry, I just get caught up in the moment." she explained still laughing.

I gave her a look and sat down on the chair once again. It was quiet between us, and i thought over my options on what I could tell her. I didn't want to tell her about what's been going on with Harry and I behind closed doors because I'm afraid she'll judge me. I also can't tell her about Noah and i, if I did, she would think I was a horrible person.  Lastly, I definitely couldn't  tell her about what harry said to me that night at Noah's or else she'd kill him and make it look like an accident. I honestly don't think the fans would be too happy if that happened, especially to him.