The Quiluete Bad Boy

My life away

"Hey I'm heading to work. See you later?" Janessa asked grabbing her bag and jacket. I shrugged "I thought about working a little extra today." She looked at me knowingly "Listen....." she began taking a seat by me on the couch. "I know you're torn up about leaving wherever it was and I'm only assuming it had to do with a guy. But hun no guy is worth this much. All you do is work. You need to get out. I mean it's been 2 months." If only she knew. It was getting harder to eat and sleep. I was basically a zombie and work was the only place I could go to be alone as Janessa was constantly lecturing me on my behavior. I sighed heavily "Ill tell you what. Let me sulk for a few more weeks then you can take me out on the town and I will forget all about my life before." She chuckled "Ok but in a few weeks I'm holding you to that or else." She hugged me and then hurried off to work. I had gotten a job at an advertising company as a receptionist. Janessa has hooked me up with the job, for which I was very grateful. She work at a nearby clinic as a nurse for a plastic surgeon. I got up from the couch to go lay down in my bed. I had spent all my free time lately there trying to sleep with no avail and my mind ranged over being away from Paul and my family. I had switched my phone and number, not wanting him to be able to track me down. I had to leave my previous phone at a hotel as I was sure he would try to locate it to find me. It was extremely painful to be away from him. I knew in some form he would be hurting too which hurt me even worse. Eventually though his pain would end with me and he would have the opportunity to move on with his life, doing what he was born to do. Doing it without me holding him back. I lay there on my bed staring at the ceiling. I could go to work, but I had no energy to get ready today. I had a horrible dream which woke me up soon after I fell asleep. I was running through the forest back home and out of no where a vampire appeared. I saw Paul go after it, almost being killed in the process. It go ahold of him and I yelled for him. Then I woke up sweating profusely, my heart going a mile a minute. The pain in my chest was getting worse by the day. At this point it was the norm and every now and then I would have to sit down to catch my breath. I took all of me to not run back home. Even if I had decided to go back I doubted I would be able to face them all, especially Paul. They wouldn't understand why I was doing this.
Paul POV
Two months, 60 days, 1,440 minutes. It felt like an eternity. Despite my best efforts, I couldn't track her down. About a month in the pack stopped investigating and her parents just recently gave up on the hope she would  contact them. It was all my fault. I shouldn't have abandoned her those three days. Emily had told me soon after her leaving that Jo admitted she felt like a burden, a burden that I didn't deserve. It was crazy to me that she felt like a burden to me because she was my everything. Each day away was worse than the last sitting in an empty house. "Paul????" I heard my name being called as the front door opened letting in a draft. I looked up from the kitchen table, my eyes landing on Embry. I could tell even from across the room that he had dark circles encasing his eyes and his demeanor was disheveled. He came and sat adjacent to me waiting for me to speak. I sighed "Embry, I just don't know what to do. I worry about her every second of every day. If she's away too long she could.........." I couldn't even finish my sentence as the the pain in my chest heightened just thinking of it. He looked at me empathetically. I knew he missed her too. He put his hand on my shoulder. "Sam wants to talk to you. He sent me to get you." The last thing I wanted do at the moment was go to Sam's and see everyone in the state I was in.

Embry and I phased back into our human form before leaving the forest and walking up to Sams front steps. The front door was open and I could  hear feint chatter of everyone inside. "Can we just know what's going on? Embry is probably going to take forever trying to get Paul out of that house." I heard Seth whine as we walked in. All eyes flew to us and the room went silent. I didn't like this feeling. I knew every single person in the room was feeling sorry for me and it made me uncomfortable. "Paul..... Embry...... please come join us." Sam stated more than offered. Embry and I both sat down in the only two open seats and waited for Sam to begin.
"So I found out some tricky information............. we may be able to alter your bond with Josephine, Paul. As in we might be able to tone it down so that if you get injured it won't be so bad for her. We may even be able to make it so you have a normal imprinting relationship." I instantly sat up in my chair, hope rushed back into my veins and I impatiently waited for him to elaborate. "The thing is this alteration requires you to......... well um it requires...... I guess I should say she has to become uhh.........." Quil laughed which seemed highly inappropriate given the circumstances. Jared smacked him upside the head. "Wait! Are you saying what I think you are saying?" Jacob interjected. I slammed my hands down on the table. "Will somebody just fucking say it?!" Jacob smirked "I think what ol Sam here is trying to tell us is you and Jo better start gettin busaaay." I still didn't quite understand "What the hell does sex have to do with it. We did it  more than plenty of times before she left. Embry plugged his ears "So didn't want to hear that!" I could see Leah roll her eyes. "Dude you have to get her pregnant." Quil stated. I was sort of taken back. Sam nodded "If Jo has a baby, she will have a connection to it and for whatever reason will cancel out some of the weird bond you guys have............ it's kind of confusing, but the elders found out you great great grandfather and his imprint didn't have children. In fact, she died before they got the chance. He actually after a while had basically an arranged marriage because the tribe knew he was one of the few spirit warriors left and his genes needed to be passed to someone." Seth crinkles his nose at his "god that's a really messed up situation. Can you imagine be forced to do that?" He thought out loud. I ignored him and tried to process what Sam said. Ultimately I understood that Jo and I had a chance at making this work. "We have to find her. Now especially knowing all this I can't let her basically sacrifice herself." Sam nodded to my response. "Well we did get a piece of information that may have been useful."