The Promise that life can go on.

Chapter 1

Peeta's POV

        She needs me. Well probably not me, but she needs someone. I desperately want to be that someone. I hate myself, I hate who they turned me into after I tried so hard to hold onto my true-self not just for me but for her. 

        During my last therapy sessions with Dr.Aurelius he kept reassuring me that whatever happened to me wasn't my fault but I can't help but feel ashamed of all the things I've done even if I wasn't really "myself." I killed an innocent man, someone that was part of my squad to take down the Capitol. I let them turn part of me into a monster that I constantly had to fight for my true-self to stay grounded. 

My thoughts are interrupted by a door slamming; not my door but Katniss' door.

Katniss

        I walk toward my window to see Greasy Sae and her granddaughter walking out of Katniss' house. Before really thinking about it I'm running/stumbling out my door trying to catch up with them.

"Goodmorning Sae, how are you two this morning?" I ask her and her granddaughter 

"We're doing fine, how about yourself?" Sae replies. "I'm doing okay, how is she?" I ask and she knows immediately knows who I'm talking about. "She's been doing better, I think you should talk to her, I mean after seeing you back it looked like something inside her changed." 

"I will, thank you so much Sae for being there for her." I reply. She nods and starts walking away. I know what I need to do.

Katniss' POV

        I eat without really tasting the food, Sae and her granddaughter stay until I finish then clean up and start to leave. After they close my door I hear another door slamming and look outside to see Peeta running/tripping his way over to Sae. Probably thanking her for taking care of me so he wouldn't have too; but I still stand there looking at the mostly him.

        He looks like he hasn't changed that much, but I know he has. The boy with the bread that loved me is probably too far to reach. I know it isn't his fault, whatever happened to him lands on my shoulders but maybe I can help? If he even wants my help.

        I continue to stare until he's gone into his own house then I decide to take a shower and hopefully a nap. 

         As I head upstairs I try my best not to think of her, I try not to think about who she was and what she could've been. She could've been so much more than who me. She would've been a real hero.

        Before I breakdown I turn on the water and throw myself in the shower and cry until there's nothing left.  

        While I'm getting dressed I hear a knock on my door which is strange because Sae usually lets herself in, and Haymitch never knocks he just randomly barges in so I quikcly get dressed and open the door to see myself looking into the eyes of someone I thought would always hate me. I must have stood there shocked for a while because eventually he just speaks up.

"Hey Katniss, do you think I can come inside?" Peeta asks, I suddenly see he's cluctching onto a brown paper bag.

I just nod suddenly nervous, and I feel something else I really can't describe. 

Peetas POV

         She nods. I suddenly feel nervous. What if Sae was wrong? What if I didn't help?

        Before I can make an excuse to leave Katniss offers me something to drink.  I nod and she goes into the kitchen and I hear her pouring water into a pot then walks back. She notices me still standing awakwardly by the doorway and motions me to sit on the couch. I take a seat and she sits next to me. "Is there something wrong Peeta?" She asks looking up at me. God she is beautiful, I suddenly feel like hugging her and reminding her how beautiful she is, I want her to know I still love her. I want to tell her I fought my way back for her.

        But instead I pull out a brown bag I had in my hand for a while now and said "I made these for you, they're still your favorite right?" Hoping she didn't lose her fondness for cheesebuns. Something that looks like a smile plays on her lips before she finally says "yes they're still my favorite, thank you Peeta." 

        I probably look weird just smiling but knowing I almost made Katniss actually smile after everything we've been through makes me happy beyond words. I just hope that soon I can make her really smile.