Silent Howl

Chapter 17

Blake's POV

Ugh.. The morning. I feel like absolute shit. I shouldn't have drank so much. There wasn't really any use cause the who "not my mate" shit was still bugging me no matter how much alcohol I consumed. I walked through the white double doors of the pack house and ignored all the pack mates trying to ask me how I was. I walked straight to my room so I can change and prepare for this horrid day. I had to talk to Mia.. I really don't want her to hate me over my stupidity.

I opened my heavy oak wood door and walked in to see Mia sprawled out on my bed with the blanket thrown off her, only covering her calves down. She was laying on her stomach with one leg bent upwards, one straight with her arms wrapped around my pillow. She was wearing a pair of red lace underwear and one of my baggy sweatshirts.

I quietly walked over to the bed and covered her up. I remembered the necklace that Jamie gave to me. I pulled it out of my pocket and placed it on the pillow next to her. I grabbed a piece of paper and a pen from my desk drawer and wrote a letter.

"I'm so sorry about what happened.. Happy birthday Mia." The note read.

I placed the note on the pillow and walked over to my closet. I pulled out a pair of gray sweatpants and a white muscle tank. I quickly undressed and threw on the clothes. I quietly made my way to the door, opened it, and walked out while closing it behind me. The smell of bacon and eggs filled my nostrils. I made my way down to the kitchen when I heard the girls laughing filling the hallway. I walk into the kitchen to see Reagan, Hailey, and Amelia cooking while my mom sat at the island with a book.

"Where the hell did you go last night?" Hailey asked.

I ignored the question and just walked over to the counter to pour a cup of coffee.

"Someone's got a hangover from hell." Reagan teased.

... Silence. Usually I had some smart comeback to throw out to them but... nothing. I heard the chair pull out and make noise on the tile floor.

"Blake.. Whats going on?" Mary said softly.

Damn her. I couldn't fucking help it. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I completely broke down. I started crying. Something I haven't done for longer than I can remember. My mother's arms came wrapping around me as she walked up behind me. I turned around and hugged her back balling. The girls stopped cooking and just looked at me in disbelief and confusion.

"Mom.. All I do is keep fucking everything up.. I-I can't do it anymore.." I choked.

"Shhhh.. It's okay baby. I'm right here." She comforted.

"The mate signs didn't show yesterday.. I shouldn't even be feeling anything about it not happening but... Xavier and I can't help but feel absolutely broken over it.." I spit out.

"Maybe they need time to show.." Reagan suggested.

"She fucking hates me now.. She saw me and Jamie last night.."

"Why would you go try and get with another girl?!" Mary said angrily.

"I just wanted the feeling to go away. I tried all night to act like everything was normal. That I wasn't feeling isolated from everyone. I fucking tried to fuck Jamie, I did. She went down on me and I said Mia's name. I couldn't have sex with her. Mia was the only person on my mind and she continues to be the only thing on my mind!" I growled.

"I feel so lost..." I grabbed my face and started to cry more.

My mother tightened her hold while rubbing my back. The next thing you see is my little brother, Josh walk in wearing a hotdog costume.

"Why is everyone crying?" Josh said starting to choke up.

Josh then started crying harder than me as we all just looked at him.

"Why are you crying Josh?" Mary asked confused.

"Because Blake is crying-g. And I'm a hotdog today and hotdogs don't cry so that means I'm not a hot-dog-g." He started to cry even harder.

"What's going on..?" I heard Mia's sweet voice..

I quickly wiped the tears off my face and walked out of the kitchen. As I walked out we made eye contact then I shot my head down to the floor. I noticed that she put the necklace on. Maybe she forgave me but I don't know..

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Mia's POV

I woke up in... Blakes room? How in the hell did I get in here? I stretched out and noticed that Blake never came home. I went to sit up and noticed a beautiful moonstone crystal necklace laying on the pillow along with a note. I picked up the necklace and looked at its beauty as the gold wrapped around the stone. I picked up the note while holding the necklace. The note read,

"I'm so sorry about what happened... Happy birthday Mia." 

Then I remembered everything that happened last night. No, I'm not gonna get sad again. You're better than this Mia. I unclasped the necklace and put it around my neck. I got up from the cozy soft bed and walked down the hall to Amelia's room to get changed. I decided on throwing my hair into a messy bun, a pair of olive green skinny jeans, and a Pink Floyd tank top. 

I made my way down the hall to find the girls when I heard weeps coming from the kitchen. I slowly approach the entrance of the kitchen and peak my head to see what's going on. I saw Blake, crying while his mom looked at Josh, who was dressed as a hotdog for whatever reason, crying his eyes out and the girls standing there with their heads down.

"What's going on..?" I asked softly.

I saw Blake wipe his face then head towards me. We looked into each others eyes. His was swollen and his eye color has went darker. He looked back to the floor as he pushed by me and headed down the hallway. I looked down to the floor.

"Good morning dear." Mary greeted before leaving the kitchen to probably go after Blake.

The girls looked at me and then looked at each other then went back to cooking. I looked at Josh and he was just laying on the floor, thinking about god knows what. I walked over to one of the bar stools at the island and sat down.

"What was that about?" I asked.

"I honestly don't know what's going on anymore." Amelia replies.

I just looked down at my hands. Why was Blake crying..? I looked over at Josh who was quiet.

"What are you doing Josh?" I questioned but got no reply.

"He's a hotdog today. He's probably gonna stay quiet all day." Reagan laughed.

"Hey guys, where's Blake?" Matt popped his head in.

"He's with Luna." Hailey shrugged. Matt ran down the hall.

Silence hit.

".. Does this have to do with me..?" I whispered.

"Blake's just upset about a lot of things right now. He doesn't break down much but when he does, he takes it rough." Reagan shrugged.

"Enough of this conversation. Who wants food?" Amelia primped.

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