have you ever felt lonely? like the kind of lonely where you know you have people surrounding you with love n shit, but you don't have them at the same time? like they're only there when it's convenient for them kind of thing. like when you're falling apart & you want to talk to them but you just don't bc you know that they won't have anything to say back or they say they're listening but then they get to the point where they just don't answer you anymore bc there's just nothing to say so you feel like a burden & that's why you don't talk about it anymore? that kind of lonely. not physical lonely, no no. the emotional lonely. i don't feel physically lonely anymore. alcohol has done a great job keeping me company bc once it takes over, my whole body shuts down & i don't feel a thing anymore.
is it just me? or do other people feel it too?
