Heroin(e) | DISCONTINUED

Chapter 9

I'm the first one to enter her room, probably because I'm 10 minutes too early. She's not in her bed when I enter and look around the room. I close the door behind me before I turn myself back around and are suddenly met with Raja standing in front of me, making me yelp loudly. "You're horrible.. You're so horrible." I whisper and I hear her giggle. "I wanted to scare you and it worked!" She says in between her laughs, making me smile just seeing her being this cheerful. She takes a few steps forwards and wraps her arms around my waist before laying her head against my chest, sighing loudly. "What's wrong baby?" I ask her as I softly and gently rub her back. "I don't want doctors in here.. I want to be with you.." She softly explains and I can feel her tighten her grip on me. "I know, but they won't take long. And I told you I'd be here every time right?" I say to her as I softly sway with her in my arms, giving her a kiss ontop of her head.

She looks up at me and cracks the smile I can't resist. I move my hand up to her cheek and gently bring her face closer to mine and press my lips against hers to which she responds by lowering her hands to the small of my back and giving me soft squeezes. I lean more into the kiss and softly bite and suck on her lower lip, earning a gasp from her. I let go of her lip with a soft smacking sound and look at her, twirling a lock of her long black hair around my finger. There's a lot of tension between us, especially since she's pushing herself against me more and letting out these soft whimpering sounds. "Baby.." I drag out, my mind kind of hazey. She just continues to press her slim body against mine, moving in such a way it's making my stomach twist. "Baby." I manage to get out in a louder tone to which she stops. "The doctor will be here in under 2 minutes, get yourself together and your pretty self in bed." I say to her with a strict voice. "Yes ma'am," she softly says and let's go of me, swaying her hips as she walks towards her bed and I can't stop myself from almost biting through my lip.

She climbs onto the bed and a few seconds later the doctor knocks on the door before he gets in. I greet him and he greets me back before giving his attention to Raja. "Hi there! Listen, we're going to fill in a form together. I'm going to ask you the questions and you're going to give me an answer, alright?" He says in this weird voice, like he's treating her as if she's a kid. "She's 20, not 6." I accidentally say which makes the doctor and turn around, giving me a weird look. I just shrug. He turns back to Raja and starts asking her all sorts of questions, the whole thing takes about 30 minutes. He asks her about her family, her past, her school and education, her friends and some other topics. I sit next to her and hold her hand the whole time. She squeezes it from time to time and I softly rub the back of her hand with my thumb.

He packs his stuff and leaves, closing the door behind him. She moves a little on her bed and I immediately take the chance to scoot closer and have her lay against me. We lay like this in silence for a little bit before someone else knocks on the door. I quickly get off the bed and we see Katya walk in with Raja's lunch. She sets it down on the table next to her bed and Raja starts eating happily. It makes me so happy to see her eat properly and take care of herself that I can't help but crack a smile. "Hey, I can take you out to lunch now?" I say to Katya and she agrees. "I'll be back later okay? Eat well." I say as neutral as possible and she smiles before I walk out with Katya.

She sets the food cart to the side before walking with me to the restaurant. "Pick whatever you want, don't mind the price." I tell her and she nods. We take a while looking at all the different sandwiches and soups before we finally make a decision. I pay for the whole thing and with our food we walk to the terrace outside and pick a spot to sit. "So how do you like it here?" Katya asks me after a little while. "It's.. an experience. But I'm having a good time." I tell her. "It takes a while until you feel like you fit in, but it's worth it. We as a team are all very close, a little too close sometimes!" She says and laughs at her own sayings. "Are Willam and Courtney and you and Alaska the only couples here?" I ask her and she slightly frowns. "Pearl and Fame sometimes hook up, but other than that yes. And maybe soon only Willam and Courtney." She simply says to which I raise an eyebrow. I take another bite from my sandwich in an attempt to encourage her to keep talking. Which to my surprise, works. "I'm... not sure of my feelings for Alaska. She's very sweet and all, don't get me wrong. There's just, been someone else who caught my eye." She says and sighs softly. I choose to play it safe and just leave it as is. "I understand. I'd say you should follow your heart and do what feels right." I say to her, she slowly nods. "I know, but it's hard. I don't like hurting people." She says.

"You'll always hurt people, you can't avoid that. You can't keep everyone happy at the same time, especially if you're not happy yourself." I say and smile at her. She smiles back, a genuine smile. "You're right, thank you." I just lay my hand ontop of hers and smile at her. We continue to eat and chat for a while before going back to our jobs again. I wave goodbye and hurry myself back over to Raja's room, quickly getting in. It startles her and she looks at me, but she starts to laugh not long after. "Don't laugh at me, you little brat." I say to her as I walk closer, sitting on her bed. "I'm not a brat!" She exclaims and giggles. I just shrug and it makes her laugh even more. She's precious, the way the corners of her mouth curl whenever she starts to laugh, how she looks at me with those eyes filled with a deep desire. I lean in and give her a quick peck on the lips that catches her by surprise. "What?" She asks me as I continue to look at her, her cheeks turning a nice rosy shade. "Nothing. I just like you." I say to her.

The next doctor took only 5 minutes, giving her a simple shot. Soon me and Raja are alone again in the same room. "You were being such a good girl when the big scary man gave you a shot!" I say to Raja as I'm cleaning up some stuff in her room. She just starts giggling and looking at me. "I'm not a little kid!" She tries to say with a straight face, but she's way too giddy. I raise an eyebrow at her and she quickly hides her face. I sneak up to her and move my face so that's it right in front of Raja and when she pulls away her blanket she yelps. I wrap my arms around her and lay with her on the bed, playing with her hair as she's laying against me. I could be like this for hours and I want her to come home with me so badly.

After a little bit I suddenly feel her fingers creeping up my thigh. They softly graze it through the fabric of my clothes. She's playing a very dangerous game and she knows it. I feel her fingers creep up more towards my nether regions that I can't stop the gasp that escapes my mouth. She looks up at me and I pretend to be looking out the window. She suddenly moves in such a way she's sitting ontop of my lap, straddling my legs with hers. I swallow, looking at her in front of me. She leans in and kisses me, starting to grind her body against mine. I kiss her back and move my hands to the small of her back, bringing her closer. The kiss is long and passionate and most you can hear is lips smacking. I can feel her whimper and softly moan into the kiss, making me smirk and pull her back by softly pulling on her hair. This makes her whine even more, but she's still not stopping her body. "Raja." I say to her and she slowly stops, blushing heavily. "Remember who's in control. Capiche?" I say and she nods quickly. I give her one last tug on her hair which makes her moan, and not so soft either.

I flip her over so I'm on top and I hold her wrists down onto the bed. Her breathing is way quicker and her eyes dart from left to right. As I want to lean down and start pampering her neck with kisses the door clicks open. We both freeze and look at the door only to find Trixie and I let out a sigh. I quickly get off the bed and look at Trixie with a look of shame as she beckons me to walk with her which I do. We step outside of the room and she crosses her arms. "I hear the sounds coming from this room at my desk, you need to be more careful Raven. Next time it won't be me, next time it might be Violet or even Needles herself." She says to me and I can only look at the ground. "Okay?" Trixie asks me after a bit of silence and I slowly nod. She pulls me in for a hug and I hug her back. I decide not to go back inside but just return to my desk to clear my head.

I want to leave this place with her, and it will happen.