Sinful (Zayn Malik AU)

Chapter 28

Songs for this Chapter:

Unsteady - X Ambassadors

Wasted - MKTO

Call Out My Name- The Weeknd

Denim Jacket- Maroon 5

Don't Wanna Know - Maroon 5

Tequila - Dan and Shay

Whiskey - Maroon 5, A$AP Rocky

A 1000 Times - Hamilton Leithauser + Rostam

Sign of the Times - Harry Styles

11 Blocks - Wrabel

I Am - James Arthur

LA is Lonely - Ricky Manning

Unhinged - Nick Jonas

Too Much To Ask - Niall Horan

Flicker - Niall Horan

Tomorrow Never Came - Lana del Rey, Sean Ono Lennon

I Fall Apart  - Post Malone

See You Again - Charlie Puth, Wiz Khalifa

Apology - Austin Mahone

Please Don't Go - Joel Addams

Chapter 28

Zayn

Three Years Ago

I slam the bathroom door shut behind me, leaving her in the bedroom alone. Her voice was shaky, her hands seemed to tremble a bit and her eyes were just about to spill tears that I could not stay to watch. It isn't her fault but yet, here I am. Being the same person I have always been, an asshole to those around me that want to look out for me. I stare at the wall in the bathroom, tears still falling down my face and I question myself yet again, how did things go so terribly wrong when they were just about to be good? It felt like we were given a second chance to make things right, to enjoy things but life decided that this outcome was what it wanted to give me. My thoughts are interrupted when I hear her voice from behind the door and I can't help but close my eyes and listen, the comfort that her voice brings me is ridiculous. I never imagined how comforting the sound of someone's voice could be until Zabludovsky walked into the picture.

"Malik... I don't know exactly how you feel but I can imagine and I am so sorry. You deserved better, he deserved better, your mom deserved better. You all deserved better and you have no idea how much it kills me to see you like this. It's not your fault, baby. You didn't do anything. He knew how you felt for him, really. I saw the way he looked at you. He loved you and he knew you loved him, too. You're not alone, remember that. You got all of us...I'm going to leave, to let you have time to yourself now. I'll see you tomorrow. Goodbye", Zabludovsky says behind the door but I don't say anything, I can't say anything. All I do is hurt people. And now I have hurt her as well but then again, this isn't the first time, I realize. I made her life a living hell in high school just because but this time I have gone too far.

I slide against the door and sit on the floor, resting my head against the door. I'm surrounded by silence and it is then I miss the sound of loud music at three in the morning, bodies swaying in the living room with no care in the world, a drink in one hand and a cigarette in the other. Perhaps a girl to hook up with only to later forget her name but instead I'm here. Where's the Zayn from two months ago that didn't give a shit about anything.

I sigh in defeat. I'm finding it hard to breath and moments from the last two weeks are flashing in my mind. It all started with them coming home, something they only did once a month but suddenly they were here in the middle of the week and the beginning of the month. Then they told me everything and expected everything to be okay. I took one look at my father and just knew, that no matter how much I despised him, he would never do something like that. It feels like a blur right now, things happened so fast. I was in this place and suddenly I was rushing somewhere else. I was trying my best to get my dad out, to prove that he was innocent even after they left me alone. I was trying and I succeeded with the help of my friends.