I'm starting to realize that all the stuff I write about are turning more into an "All About Me" type series.
I don't know if you guys care about it but I'll just do whatever I want. It's "my" series after all.
Anyways, back to the topic. Reading the title, you already know what I'm going to talk about.
I'm a socially awkward person.
When talking to people I've known for years, I'm a bit more comfortable but when it comes to talking to completely new people.............
There are times when I truly want to become friends with new people and I gather my confidence to talk to them (by talk I mean messaging them, I don't have real life friends) it always ends up being awkward.
Before talking to someone, I like to know them more so I do research on them. I pretty much stalk them. But the research is in order to know them more, you know........yeah, I'm creepy.
THIS IS WHAT I MEAN BY SOCIALLY AWKWARD.
Even though I do all the research and gather my confidence, my conversations always end with silence.
Me: HELLO, I WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND
Person: Oh, okay sure
Me: THANK YOU
Person: Okay?
Me: Yeahhhhhh
Me: So what do people normally do after they become friends
Person: Idk
Me: haha
Person: haha
And yeahhh, I could feel the awkwardness from just writing this.
This also usually marks the end of the conversation forever.
I don't go out and start conversations because I'm always worried of being too naggy or annoying.
There times in life where I just want to talk to someone about something. Whether it be about something sad or happy. I just want to talk. But I don't want to be annoying. So I always end up alone.
To those who actually read my nonsense that I write because I have no friends. Thank you very much.
This series has been going on for over a year and even though it's been completely ridiculous writing, I thank you guys so much.
See you in the next one ;)
