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Jimin - Sorry

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"What are you doing here?" I opened the door to my apartment to see Jimin. Tae texted he was coming, which explained why I wasn't surprised. But, seeing him in front of me, it felt surreal.

"I'm here to win you back," he smiled.

His eye smile would always make me fall for him, but not today, or any day. He was a jerk who left three years ago.

"I'm not some prize you can win," I said about to close the door, he pressed his hand on the door to stop me.

"I don't mean it like that, give me another chance (Y/N)," he said staring at me with his eyes.

I couldn't let his beautiful brown soft eyes fool me again.

"Jimin, you were gone for three years! With no warning or anything! You just vanished into thin air, no one knew where you were, or they said they didn't. I waited, Jimin. I did, but I can only wait for so long," I wasn't mad at him, I was furious.

I fought the tears that dared to spill from my eyes.

"(Y/N)," he reached out for my arm, I stepped back.

"Don't touch me, don't you dare touch me," I said and he retracted his hand.

The smile on his face vanishing.

"I'm really sorry," he said, but I just stared at him, his sorry? That's it? "I want to tell you why I had to leave without telling you, but –"

"You can't, I get it," I said sighing.

Jimin was a spy for a secret organization. He told me a week after we started dating. But, that was it, he didn't tell me what he did or who he worked for because it was classified.

"I wanted to tell you (Y/N), I wanted to tell you that night, I really did," he said and I took in a deep breath.

The last night I saw him before he was gone in the morning, it was three years ago.

"It doesn't matter," I said shaking my head, "It doesn't matter that you're here, it doesn't matter –"I kept shaking my head and the tears were spilling, "- that I missed you, it doesn't matter that you're –"I stare at the ground seeing the tears fall on the floor, "- alive."

I kept my head down crying. Why? Why was I crying? I thought I moved on? I thought I got over him? Didn't I already accept the idea of him being dead?

Then why? Why am I happy that he's here?

"(Y/N), look at me," he took a step closer and I stepped back.

"Don't come closer please," I said keeping my head down, I curled my hands into fists, "Please, just leave, like you did three years ago, just leave."

My voice was shaky, "Please, leave."

"I'm not going to do that anymore," I look up to him, to see if his eyes were sincere.

"Are you done?" I asked and he sighed, "Then how can you say that? How can you be so sure you won't just leave an hour from now?" he just stared at me, "I can't be with you, I just can't have this fear of knowing, that maybe tomorrow, you'll have to go again to some place, to risk your life for god knows what!" I turn my back to him, "I can't, Jimin."

I felt him close behind me, "I still love you," he said and a new flood of tears came.

How could he say that?

"I've never stopped loving you," he wrapped me in his arms and place his chin on my shoulder, I stood still, "You kept me going. I'd close my eyes each night to see your smile in my head before I fell asleep," and those nights I was crying myself to sleep trying to forget him, "I'd replay our memories in my mind and say, I'll make new memories with her one day, I promise I will, I'll go back to her and hug her tightly," he said as he tightened his grip.

I closed my eyes, "Jimin, it's not that easy," I said and he let go of me, I felt him walk in front of me I open my eyes, he had tears in his eyes, but he smiled, "I – I was –"I shake my head "- I am in pain."

"I know and I'm sorry I caused that," he said taking a step closer, I stood still, "I can't make up for the three years that I was gone, I can't replace the nights that you were crying yourself to sleep, I can't change those things that already happen," he said and my heartaches, "But, I can love you now, I can love you for all the nights to come and hold you in my arms, I can show you how much I missed you, I can show you that I am still in love with you."

He cupped my face and I flinched, "We can take it slow, we can –"

"My days and nights felt exhausting long when you were gone," I said, "Every day that passed, I had this hope you'd be beside me, or that I was having this really terrible dream and I'd wake up. I don't want to take things slow, I want to – I want to just enjoy the present with you," I said and he smiled, "But, you have to understand that the scar you made, will always be a reminder that you left me."

He nodded, "And that, I will have my moments when I'm scared to wake up alone at night, you have to understand that –" he pulled me for a hug.

"I'm here. I'm really here and I'll remind you every day and night, I'm not leaving you," he said and I cried into his chest, "I love you (Y/N), that will never change."

A/N: Hey! It's Eun, it's been a while since I wrote an imagine! And I was so busy that, I always forget I still have a requested Jimin imagine that I haven't wrote.

I'm truly sorry that you waited for so long! And I'm thankful for your patience! I hope you enjoyed your angsty Jimin imagine request, I really tried my best!

Question(s) of the imagine: Have you every wanted to be a spy? Do you like watching spy movies?

Take care always! Love you, fighting!