Ayaw Ko'g Labda

50> Ayaw Ko'g Biyae

POV ni HENDRIX

50> Ayaw Ko'g Biyae

Yumi walked away without looking back. I feel like being stabbed countless of times. Sakit akong dughan while nagtan-aw niya nga nag-anam kalayo. I want to run after her...Oh please Yumi ayaw ko ug biyae. But my feet were glued on the tiled floor. Somehow, mura ug nakahibaw nga dili na nako kapugngan iyang paglakaw. Has the final word been said? Is this the end? Dili pwede...I need to do something.

As she walked farther away from me, memories of our first encounter flashed back. More vivid than when it actually happened. Reminding me why I am so miserable today. Katong first namong meet up nga bati kaayo kay nagkatinubagay nami. And I didn't expect that it's the beginning of my first love story. Corny noh? But it's the truth. I don't really do girlfriends and relationships. I hate commitments. But with Yumi, I so wanted to tie myself with her...unbelievable, right? 

The first time I saw her, I feel the need to detest her or else I will fall for her compelling charm. There is something unique about her that I couldn't quite decipher. So I was like a moth, drawn to the flame. She was sitting  alone at my usual table in the cafeteria. Simple kaayo, way daghang arte sa itsura. Kung tan-awn meek kaayo, pero wa ko nagtuo nga isog pa siya sa leon. Wala gyud sa iyang itsura nga she stings like a bee diay.

"Move out!"

Ako siyang gisinghagan. Pero wa gyud siya matarog...igo ra gyud siyang nitutok nako ug nipadayon ug kaon. Wow! This is something new. Who is she? Nganong gideadma ra ko niya? Most girls if not all would cower once makadungog sa akong singka...or they would drool over my good looks. Mao ra gyud na ilang usual nga reactions...but this girl gibalewa ra akong presence.

"What are you waiting? I said move out!"

"Excuse me? And why should I? Ako'y nakauna dire! Ayaw kog singkahi ha kay wa ko nanghilabot nimo!"

Ug mas naintriga pa gyud ko niya kay iya kong gitubag ug pinaisog sad. Wow! It's a first nga naay nitubag nako. She looked so fragile with her skinny frame and yet she sounds like a warrior ready for a battle.

"What?! Are you defying me?! Get out while I can still hold my temper!!!"

"Unya ug di diay ko?! Kadako anang space nganong di ka molingkod! Nagkaon ang tawo pahawaon nimo. Hilas ra kaayo ka dzong!"

And now she totally has my interest. She annoys the hell out of me. Pero I want to keep on seeing that annoyed look on her face. Mura ko ug mahimuot magtan-aw niya. Pero mas nindot gyud ug mosmile siya kay murag gitikon akong kasingkasing unya makaheart heart sa mata.

Since then, I enjoy teasing her. Kay murag di gyud kadot niya akong charm. But little did I know that I am slowly falling for her. Dili gyud unta ko gusto kay I don't want to be attached to anyone kay I know pointless ang tanan. My family would impose what they have long been planning. So I just play around and string along pieces of broken hearts of the girls who are stupid enough to fall for me.

But Yumi...such a sweet and beautiful name. I could even taste the sweetness every time litokon nako iyang name. She's totally different. She occupies every nook of my mind whether I'm awake or asleep. Yes, I also dream of her. She's like a some kind of enchantress who has me spellbound. Dili kumpleto akong adlaw ug dili ko makapang-asar niya. Gusto nako nga tagdon ko niya permi.

And little did I know that she has crept her way to my cold heart...melting every coat of ice surrounding it. Karon pako kasuway ani nga feeling. Di ko ganahan makakita niya makig-istorya ug laing laki. Hapit gani mi magkasumbagay sa akong katropa nga si Siegfried kay gustong makigchar-char ni Yumi. Ug di lang kay siya ra...naa pa gyud koy daghang nabantayan nga magpatagad labi na gyud si Khalil nga pa good boy effect ug ang ultimate bad boy nga si Denver. Argh daghanang karibal uy!

And now, she walked away again. She's drifting away from me. I can feel her pain pero nganong nibiya man siya? She wanted a label di ba? I'm willing to give it to her if she could only wait. Am I being selfish? But then in love, di ba people tend to become selfish?

I want her in my life. She's like a rainbow in my dark sky. She brightened my usually gloomy day. When I'm with her, I feel so damn happy nga dili nako gustong mopiyong aron dili siya mawagtang sa akong panan-aw. And whenever I hold her, dili na nako siya gustong buhian. Is this love? I really don't know...I haven't felt this way and I couldn't tell kung unsa ni akong gibati. Well I guess, this must be love...kay I've been with so many girls and yet, I didn't feel this kind of connection with them. They all mean nothing to me...but with Yumi, she's my everything!

I remember the first time I held her. We were in the library. It wasn't my intention to hug her, but it seems like murag naay strong kaayo nga force which drew me to her...unya irresistible kaayo nga di jud nako kapugngan. And the moment I've touched her, mura ko ug nakuryentehan. Did she feel it too? I don't really know. My heart leapt wanting to escape from my chest. It's a whole new feeling and I'm beginning to like it. Mao to nga ganahan nako magpaduol niya pero kay I don't know how to approach her man, ako na lang gipaagi sa binuang. I have never courted a girl and I don't know how to do it. And besides, niabot pa gyud si Nur Eve samot nga maglisod na nuon ko ug diskarte ni Yumi. But I made her feel how I feel for her. Di lang gyud pwede nga mahimo ming official. I was torn..bent and broken. And I believe that she's the only one who can make me whole. But how am I gonna make her stay?

I was lost in my own thoughts until naabot ko sa condo. Galibog ko how to get away from this tangled mess my family has created for me. Gusto kong molingkawas, so I'd be free to win Yumi's heart...but how? My parents will surely hate me and without money, how am I going to give Yumi a good life? Love won't be enough to sustain us. We're too young and we haven't proven anything in this world. How are we going to survive?

"Hello lover boy!"

"Why are you here?!"

Si Nur Eve naglingkod sa receiving area sa condo. Gaunsa kaha ni siya dire? Di ko ganahan makakita niya kay magsipok lang akong utok. Lalaki pa lang ni siya hagbay ra ning nakatilaw sa akong kumo kay samok kaayo! Mao ni siyay hinungdan sa kagubot sa akong life. If only she didn't return, I could have lived happily and in peace. She's so clingy dili pa gani kami...unsaon na lang ug magkadayon gyud mi? I can't imagine a life with her. Dili siya akong gipangandoy nga makauban for a life time.

"Oh, is that how you welcome your fiancée?"

"Shut up Nur! We're not even official. Get lost!"

"Ouch! You're so harsh baby. Treat me nicely or I'll ruin you for good."

"As if you haven't ruined me enough!"

"You're so full of drama Hendrix! I came here coz I have a proposition for you... but since you're not interested, I'd better go. Too bad, it could actually make you happy."

"What? Cut the crap and say it!"

"As in here? Aren't you going to invite me in?"

"Ok fine! This better be worth my time or else you'll regret coming over here."